Accountability for All

Day 4 check in

 

Day 19, checking in! Was quite a challenging day today. Had continuous thoughts coming in that were very invasive. Body felt agitated due to the cravings. Kept having temptations that 'I need it' but I realised it would only bring me ruin. Staying strong and has helped using questions like 'how will this help me in the long term?', 'How will I feel after?' and so on. I recognise this is where the transformation happens and I just have to endure. Keep it up fellas!

 

Day 1

 

109 days no P!
day 2 no MO

 

I've been making some positive changes recently: sleeping early, going for morning runs, regular strength training...
and have decided today to give abstinence an earnest attempt.

I probably waste 15 hours a week watching porn and its a massive waste of time that I can't afford. So here we go.

What I'll do when I feel an urge:
- hit the emergency button (bookmarked, saved to my phone screen; ...just showed me that jellybean vid)
- drink a glass of water
- go out for a walk
- call a friend
- make a post here while I'm out walking that I avoided an urge

It's not going to be easy. I have to make sure to plan out my tasks, and recognize fantasies as they start emerging.
Sometimes I tend to fantasize for over 2 hours while doing other things before even starting to look up porn.
But I have to remember what's at stake. My dreams, my potential, everything just inches within my reach that will slip away if I continue wasting time.

The amateur thinks he's hot shit, the professional knows that Resistance will smack him down the moment he lets pride begin to build. I will remain humble and committed on this journey.

And I wish you all the best on yours.

 

Day 2
I didn't do anything productive today.
Hope 4 a better tomorrow

 

checkin'

 

Day 1 Updates
Morning:
- I spend a lot of time on Discord co-working video chats, and there are often very attractive female strangers online. Perhaps the way to stop fantasizing is to stop objectifying attractive women and instead, try to relate to them. She's just like me, sort of unhappy with life, doing what she can for a better future, with past failures, heartbreaks, patterns she's trying to break. She has a complicated relationship with a parent, a too small bank account, ideals from her youth that she's given up on, and an optimism that will not be defeated despite all this.

Afternoon:
- Having some sexual thoughts along with afternoon slump. Clicked NoFap emergency button on my phone for some motivation. Gonna go for a walk now

 

Completed 18 days by now, feeling really nice and didn't have too many urges/sexual thoughts throughout the day. And I'm still consuming NoFap lifestyle material, more moderate now... and today I want to share this 180 days success story that I found really inspiring and helpful for this journey - hope you can give it a look and remember, this fight is not over until we win. Stay strong everyone!

 

day 5 check in

 

Day 0

 

Just got through day 20! Let's keep the energy going and take back control of our lives!

 

Check-in:

P: 21 days
M: 47 days
M: 47 days

* 1 PMO but no relapse
* 1 MO but no relapse

Key findings:
1. Brain fog has cleared drastically
2. I can look at females outdoors now when working outdoors and not want to have sex.
3. When I look at women now I listen to what they're saying, and can take in information so much better. I'm not oogling them or having crazy fantasies from watching all the porn, as it's been so long since I watched any in a relapse mode. Even extremely attractive women I can hold conversation and enjoy the subject, or just walk off uninterested. I'm not chasing my tail.
4. My other hobbies and career seem to be moving faster. I'm getting better at gardening, building my own business.
5. My wife seems way more relaxed. She's Probably feeling more secure around me.
6. I'm way more non judgemental.

All positive

 

Thanks for sharing your experience @Spreadlove ! Congratulations on making it this far

 

Cheers bro. You too!

 

Day 3

 

Day 60 in the books!!!

 

Day 2

I've relapsed 6 times (based on timeline depicted in journal) since I've started nofap and I am committing to doing everything I can to maintain my abstinence and prevent a relapse.
I made a SMART goal, not sure what that really means. I filled out a worksheet, talked about coping mechanisms, and was assigned to do some breathing exercises and write down my triggers. I meditate 1-2 times every day on the weekdays, taichi in evenings, some qi gong in the morning, calisthenics (fancy word for strength training using body weight as resistance) sets early morning and afternoon with regular workouts 4-5 days a week adding up to 1.5-2.5 hours of dedicated exercise daily on weekdays.

I have a tough time keeping my head straight, fantasizing for a solid amount of the day some of which is about my mercurial girlfriend but still a slipup in terms of mental discipline. My last streak was going well (10 days) until I got cocky and fell apart, PMO binge for 2-3 hours, jerking off with no porn in the morning, then binging on junk food the following day.
I think worrying about my car going to the shop and me being without a vehicle for a little while pushed me over the edge on top of being overconfident in my momentum.

Here I am back at it again.

 

Day 2. Fuck it

 

Checking in after a long time

Day 2, lets go!!!