Hey how's it going guys? I had a very bad panic attack today, at work. Let me just get this out of of the way first. I have had anxiety all my life. I had my first major panic attack while at my first job when I was 18. Basically, I'm not new to anxiety. I am however new to the fact that much of my anxiety has been due to my addiction to porn and PMO. It was one of the worst panic attacks I have ever had. If being taken away in an ambulance would be considered a 10/10, then I would say I had a 9/10 panic attack. I could feel my heart beating very fast; felt like it was gonna beat out of my chest. I had to actually take some emergency medication I always keep on me (klonopin), which I very rarely do; don't even take it on a plane ride. I have seen that many people experience anxiety while in reboot. But for me it seems odd because, I experienced more anxiety the more I watched porn and PMO'd. It seems to me that it will be a case of getting worse before it gets better. I guess I don't need any real feedback, just wanted to write about it and share with you guys. Good day!
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR 9 DAYS OF SUCCESS !! Yes, panic attacks can really suck -- like being a pill in a crucible. Maybe it is like you said, " It seems to me that it will be a case of getting worse before it gets better." One of the last "hoo-rahs". NoFap is best ............. not always easy ............... but strength & calmness is always better than shame and anxiety.
I feel you my friend. I’ve been suffering from serious anxiety for about a year (although I’ve had social anxiety for a majority of my life). Had my first panic attack in August of last year where I was admitted to the hospital due to difficulty catching my breath. Afterwards the anxiety lessened but was still present. During my reboot however the anxiety has gotten far, far worse. It let up a couple days ago and I had momentary relief before I ended up basically having a mild panic attack for most of the day yesterday and nearly all of today. Heart was beating fast, had tightness in the chest and difficulty breathing. I’m still having it a bit now but it’s not quite as bad. Terrible thoughts have been racing through my head most of this current streak including strange and bizarre hypochondria, which I’ve never had before in my life. My stomach has been bothering me as well. Considering this is my first clean reboot (last time I was edging) and longest streak so far, I’m assuming my brain is doing some serious re-wiring. But it has been pure and utter hell. I truly wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. But it does help to discuss it with others and to know that it will get better. Sometimes even just hearing what others are going through helps ease your own suffering because you realize you aren’t alone in this.
My brother is 100+ days right now, and he had some serious anxiety around the 90 day mark so I'm definitely expecting it. It can make it tempting to go back to porn for temporary relief, but 90 days is a drop in the bucket compared to the more than half my life having social anxiety, depression, brain fog, etc. Thanks for the feedback Dagger!
