So during my last relapse, I was having really bad thoughts of something unpleasant, I know I’m not attracted to it, but my mind makes me think I must do it again to not feel this way and so I have a clean streak. I haven’t been able to get the thoughts out of my head. I know it’s just in my head. But can someone reassure me that relapsing is not the answer? Also, HOCD. I think that’s what I have. Please help me feel the need to not relapse. It makes me feel like I’m attracted to something I’m not by thinking of it.