Im Desperate, i think im gonna suicide

Hey man, this is just a phase. Its just a period of time. Maybe not in 5 minutes, maybe not in a week, but sometime in the future you will have a totally different and positive outlook on life. Give it some time and life will balance out again. I know it sucks to relapse and to feel the weight that this addiction brings but in the big picture it should not have the power to drag us down to such awful emotions. Its easy to get stuck on our own issues. Try to be involved in the world around maybe do service for someone. All im saying is that ya life can suck. BUT IT WILL GET BETTER. best of luck to you brother

 

If you hit rock bottom you can only go up from there. just take it easy. love yourself before you look for love in someone else.

Good luck bro.

 

I know how you feel as I been there (but I didn't have suicidal thoughts) I am on my longest streak ever and I wasn't able to imagine this 27 (nearly 28) days ago. It is about building positive momentum. Don't beat yourself up to death when you wank 4x a day and you can not build momentum. Sleep if it makes you tired, but try to build some small streak and use that streak as momentum to move you forward. It is very likely that if you fail again you will fap 3-6x a day back again. I would probably do the same. Build that momentum and stay kind with yourself. Also, read the blue text under this comment. Good luck to you.

 

Once you truly understand that pmo will only ever gonna fuck up your life you will not stop doing it. This realisation is what works for me. And how you get this realisation? By fucking up your life with pmo unfortunately !.