Is porn addiction linked to childhood trauma?

For the past 2 weeks, I have tried and failed to stop watching porn. I've been masturbating excessively to where I have pain. I cant seem to fight the urges to watch porn. It is ruining my self esteem and my life. I need advice on how to overcome urges, what you did to stop watching porn, and just general motivation, etc. When I was on nofap a month ago, I made it 178 days without masturbating. I have since tried to masturbate without porn, which was working great. But then if course porn came onto the equation and I'm back at square one. Here's some backstory on my addiction. My parents got divorced when I was in 3rd grade, and it was and still is deeply traumatic for me. My dad and his mom used to emotionally and psychologically abuse me, and they still do. Needless to say, I dont have a good relationship with my dad. I developed severe anxiety, especially social anxiety. I also developed a stutter that makes things even worse. I found out about porn shortly after and used it to cope. I have been addicted to porn since I was 9 years old. I cant stand it anymore. I wany a better life for myself. Any help or opinions would be greatly appreciated.

 

I would, but given that I'm just a teenager, I'd have to talk to my mom about it. That would be pretty awkward haha

 

Thanks. I'll definitely look k to talking to a counselor or therapist. Good luck to you too