December has been a really shitty month for me. Not really so much for urges, but horrible mood swings and random depressive episodes made it by far my worst month yet. Just recently this as I was waking up, I was half asleep and felt huge aches in my penis and turns out semen came out. I can't recall much of what happened before that though. Pretty much a unintentional relapse to me anyways as wet dreams and similar events do drain you of vital nutrients. I did experience physical effects of a relapse such as pain and low energy, but mentally I wasn't too much different aside from wondering what the hell happened. Either way ever since October it's been the first time since October it has happened.