Letting it all out ! Read this and do the same as me!!

[RecoveryOn]

3 years since i officially started nofap my best streak so far is 43 days.. other than that 10,20 days every new month. I have learned a lot and i have seen progress but i still have insecurities and im going to let them all out.

23 year old and I feel shame..
I feel shame because i can say i have wasted most of my life in Pmo anxiety and self doubt.. i know we must love ourselves to be in peace but i still blame myself for hiding so many years in pmo and not facing real life.

I have a decent life, i surround myself with good people and have a loving girlfriend

But deep down inside i know im still not myself a 100% i still don't have a driver license, i still havent got a real job i always find a way to make money the easy way because im way to anxious to throw myself in a job that demand social skills and a lot of contact with people.

Im afraid of looking stupid and inadequate. I think thats my biggest fear and thats what actually stopping me from makin a call that can get a really good job that pays very well.

Im a kind of person that believes we have to chase our dreams but i dont know what my dream is anymore..
Im inlove with sports but im already old i cant become professional
i cant play or start training for the Nba or Play soccer as a professional
My other dream is to become a dancer. Always loved that but never tried cus of anxiety i guess...

I am a good calisthenics athlete but deep down inside i know this isn't my real passion and i know i need something else.
I need a goal in life to get me going.

I regret sending hours , days and weeks on pmo and on cyber sex.... my frontal cortex is becoming weaker and im startin to feel that the addiction is starting to get a toe on me. Its been 3 years !!! on NoFap and i still waste my time after knowing so much on the negative effects of pmo...

Im not ready for life but i want to be...

I will get my driver license, i will get that job , i will go through hell to get better. I will win all my future sport competitions, i will make my family and girlfriend proud!!

I am scared, in fact im terrified of facing this addiction cus there are times where i really feel depressed i feel guilt i feel shame and i fear feelin unqualified.

I regret that i lack knowledge on so many things but i know that god is here for me and i will always keep trying to better myself.

I didnt try to organise this post
i just let my thoughts flow and see how "unstable" i think i am...

There is a battle in my mind that i have to win!!

I cant change the past.. im in full regret of my wasted years.. it will haunt me for the rest of my life , but the future is ahead of me and even if sometimes i feel so unmotivated and see no reason in anything i will keep pushing....

ITS NOT OVER UNTILL I WINN !!

on the other side of fear is success!!!

I dont want to live in fear anymore i want to prove to myself once and for all that im GOOD ENOUGH!!

Thank you all it feels better when you let it all out !!

Now i challenge you to do the same .. lay out all your fears and regrets in life and say what do you want to become from now on !!!

Lets win !!

The real life for me starts now !!

 

[Aden Watson]

Hey man! I know what you feel like! I think most people here feel the same way too.

The fact of the matter is that for us, we have to focus on a major lifestyle shift in order to become the men that the modern world requires. I'm about to turn 20 years old in a couple of days, but I've been actively fighting this addiction for the last 2 years. I'm not afraid to say that I've done a pretty bad job of it too. For almost a year and a half I just tried to strong-arm myself into quitting cold turkey, without actually changing anything. I thought that just quitting porn and not masturbating would somehow fix me and then I'd be happy. But the truth is that PMO is a series of rewarding actions with terribly negative consequences. You can't just quit porn, and replace your action with inaction, you have to replace porn with new action, habits and behaviors that help build you up instead of tear you down. I'm still struggling myself, and I just started a new streak. I'm trying to get to 90 days for the first time. Just know that you're not alone. And other people are struggling the same as you. Quitting porn and masturbation is a right of passage. We need to break our chains.

 

[bikinhappy]

hey bro, you are 23 years old and already found this awesome community.
I am 37 years old and just found this community.

Imagine that if you were me.
You spent another 14 years feeling like what you describe.
I know because I did it.

So acknowledge that you start early that most people.
It's a bless for you bro.
Be grateful that you recognize this destructive pattern on 23 years old.
Not when you 40, 50 or else.

Try to read success story threads.
You will see a lot of people that found it on later ages than yours.
You can consider yourself lucky

Just don't stop trying and improving yourself.
You'll get there bro.
My pray for you...

 

[RecoveryOn]

Thank you !

 

[The punisher7]

come on bro ,,, it takes 3 months to recover from all the negative effects of porn
only 3 months and you have a whole life to live and to achieve your goals
You encouraged me to post and to let it all out
Stay motivated

 

[kingbob3]

Day 19.

Its so important to hit the gym that without it you have so much of energy that filth comes very easy in our mind. Today is Sunday and my gym is closed in the evening so I did my cardio in the morning only. Felt so amazing and all pumped up. When you work out brain goes in emergency mode, it cannot make out the difference between an actual threat and workout regime so its start burning fat when you break a sweat and when you are done your brain gets a feeling that finally the threat is gone so it rewards our system with some harmones like cortisol, dopamine and many more neurotransmitters aka feel good harmones which gives you a relaxed state of mind, a feeling like life is good without a threat, Enjoy life its beautiful. Its not necessary to hit the gym only any type of workout which breaks your sweat will give you the same feeling. Its an amazing way of utilizing the excess energy in our body which if not released builds up in the form of filth. When one has high sexual drive one should release the same by doing some physical exertion.
But I need to develop some habits in which this excess energy can be utilized by using my brain as well. I need to start doing complex mathematics, physics and chemistry in this way I can release my energy by using my brain as well. Back in a day when I was a teenager studying these subjects and every time I got stuck with some problems I remember I got frustrated and instead of solving the problem I chose fapping to porn. Because in that young age when I was overflowing with sexual energy anything which gave me discomfort, porn was always there for an escape. I didn't had this much of wisdom about nofap back then but now I am armed with the power of knowledge. So I need to finish what I started back then, which sadly I gave up cuz I could not handle the energies of my system at that time. I have this complex, this guilt in me that I could not deliver what I was supposed to deliver, this failure has grown a burgeoning tumor of regret in me which has devastated my self confidence and the only practical way which I see possible to develop myself into a responsible human being is by slowly steadily removing all the malign parts of the tumor which are pulling me down, academics being one of them.
I hope I am positive through out, and I am aware that I am gonna meet some really hard times because its difficult to handle such an huge amount of accumulated sexual energy but I am adamant, I am fed with the life of mediocrity and I desire and deserve a happy content and level 10 best version of myself in this life.
The following picture I received from a junior, on whatsapp, hope it gives you an idea about what I am going through. I need help please write any suggestions it will be of great help.