Only now, reading this site, I discover that what I have been doing my entire life is prone masturbation. My case is also very peculiar, in which I have masturbated prone my entire life, could never reach orgasm any other way, but still got married and had kids. I started humping mattress as an infant and continued masturbating like this my entire life. When I was around 10 or 11 years old some friends told me they masturbated rubbing their penises with their hands, I tried but got no pleasure, so I continued with prone. Spoiler: Possible triggers I never had any girlfriend and was completely virgin until I was 24, when I met a girl who was also a complete virgin. We had "sex" by having her come over me, she would rub her vagina on my penis, she could reach orgasm by doing this. This gave me pleasure but not an orgasm, after she finished I would prone masturbate and reach orgasm. We got married and did like this for some years, none of us was interested in penetration as we had our own way to reach orgasm. For her it was not a problem as she never knew any other sexual experience. Then we decided to have kids, at first it was a problem, I can have erections without problem but I can't orgasm and ejaculate in a penetration. So I started by masturbating prone and when I felt I was about to ejaculate I would fastly penetrate her. After a couple of months of practice I managed to master this and get her pregnant, and we could have 2 kids. My wife's sexual desire has completely vanished in the last 3 years so we aren't doing this anymore. I am a masturbation addict and continue masturbating prone. I am trying to stop and am now reaching longer streaks (until recently I couldn't go past 3 days, hardly more than 1 week). I have no intention to masturbate the normal way, I am just trying to stop completely.