THE 100 DAY SPARTAN CHALLENGE (OPEN)

Thanks guys!

Day 16 (24 personal)
It’s getting easier now. I still feel the old urges, especially when I sneak a bite or two of chocolate.. but I catch myself and stop doing old things.. like picking out the most beautiful female, or looking below the face. I try to remember that every person I see is family to someone.. that they have more value than I used to give them and more value than I used to have with my demoralizing ways.

*places spoils of war on the table*
For Sparta!

 

Day 16

 

Checking in: Day sixty-three.

 

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Good to see you are making progress again!

 

Good work!

 

Thanks ...

 

Sixty-plus days with no PMO, and what a journey it's been!

Here's what I've learned the past weekend:

I no longer expect permanent recovery without struggle and suffering. I am on the road to living a life free from addiction, and for me this newfound life involves its fair share of discomfort and suffering.

No matter how many days I've abstained from PMO, my past and present demons greet me, and I need to stay strong and vigilant, and I need to rely on God and family and friends for support and guidance.

I also need to keep looking inward, thoroughly and honestly evaluating why I chose to numb my emotions to begin with. Abstaining and putting together a long streak isn't enough. I must continue to dig deep and confront my demons.

I believe that my all of my addictions can be traced to a painful and traumatic past, which involved a particularly battering assault on my psyche, and I'm convinced that the hurt and pain and underlying wounds from my past remain at the center of my fear and insecurity and yearning for acceptance and control.

For me it's easy to live a PMO-free life on my "up" days, but what counts the most is doing the right things on the lonely, dark days, when I'm feeling anxious and depressed, deprived of sleep, entertaining sexual urges, and worrying about circumstances and events beyond my control.
This is when I really need to buckle down and continue to pray to God, meditate, work on goals, log onto nofap, hit the gym, take cold showers, get out of the house...because this is my chosen path, and this what my recovery plan requires, and I've come too far to let it all slip away!

No matter what my day counter reads, I am recovering, one day at a time. It doesn't matter how slowly I am recovering or how often I am struggling. I need to keep traveling in the right direction, one day at time. This journey doesn't require perfection, and it's OK to rest every now and then, but I will never quit, and so today I will continue along my chosen path, convinced that my effort is well worth the journey.

 

"A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without trials"

Seneca

 

Checking in, Day 10. DOUBLE DIGITS, BAYBAY!?!

was struggling really bad yesterday and don’t know why I couldn’t shake my urges. I was being productive but I felt like it wasn’t the productive I wanted, lots of chores, cleaning up, finishing up things wife asked me to do. At the moment I was frustrated but as look back today at what I Knocked out I feel good.

crushed the gym this morning, forgot to weigh myself though and that’s a bummer because I won’t know my official weight of the start of this week and the sauna was super packed to where I couldn’t meditate so it felt like a rocky start.

Clean eating begins with meatless Monday, I have my protein shake to help with my gains. This week is mine. I’m going to start practicing my guitar mastering an album a month, the last few weeks I was so caught up in playing a lot of Elvis on the guitar to play and sing at the same time. Lots of hits that can be performed when asked to play the guitar, and no one should ever have a problem with the King. I was also playing a lot of the Smiths for skill, i hate how difficult the guitar parts are but love that it’s such a challenge. Finished an art project from May of last year and I can move on to two new ones. I want to say all things take time and are meant to happen, but NoFap has helped jump start a few things.

 

Check in Day 13

 

Daily check day (1)15 @Kratos_GOW
Woke up really early, hit the gym only 2 hours but had an intensive training since I knew I was only that 2 hours free.
Really happy, today is Epiphany and in Italy is holy almost as Christmas and I when this morning after my first hour routine I was walking to the gym(around 7 30 am) nobody was around, I mean I crossed the main street without even checking because no one was around, all in the bed, because it is holiday but
"Today I'll do something that others won't, so tomorrow I'll have something others won't"
So I am ready to give my title to our motivator @the alpha project
I am really honored to give my title to him, and I can't wait that all of you will gain that title, because as I said before this way you will learn that the title is just a little reward compared to great reward of having changed your life.
Because what we're doing here is changing the type of person that we are.
In 24 years I never considered myself as a morning person.
In the last 45 days I never woke(NEVER, no matter the day or what I did the previous evening) after 7 30, I woke just one time at 8 on Jan,1. So despite the previous 24 years, who am I?
In 24 years I never considered myself as a "fit" guy, I always(out of jealousy) make fun of them.
In the last 66 days I hitted the gym 56 times. So despite the previous 24 years, who am I?
What I am trying to say that we are too attached to the definition that we make of ourselves. While growing we decided that we were a type of person and then we made wrong decisions just because they were the decision that a person like that would have done.
But we can change that. We can reverse the procedure.
How?
Every decision you take is a vote for the person you wish to become.
Cast as many votes as possible for the person you want to be.
Want to be a morning person? No matter how painful, wake the earliest you can
Want to be a "gym tipe"? No matter how stressful, hit the gym everytime you can
And then you'll start to believe it. and a magic action-reaction will start:
Your beliefs become your thoughts,
Your thoughts become your words,
Your words become your actions,
Your actions become your habits,
Your habits become your values,
Your values become your destiny.

So my advice is to change the greatest problem in people trait:
We must stop being a thermometer and start being a thermostat.
Where's the difference?
By now we are thermometer because how we work is "adapt to the enviroment", if the enviroment say 20° we as thermometer say 20° as well. If the enviroment is lazy we become lazy as well.
But we need to be a thermostat, because a thermostat works and the enviroment adapts to it. If we want 25° instead of 20° we as thermostat change the enviroment. If we want to be productive, we change the lazy enviroment.
That's the point, changing instead of being changed.