The Lord of the Rings Challenge

608 days semen retention

 

Checking in
Day 608

It's been almost 3 weeks no sex. I've refused some girls these days.
Overall feeling good, a more calm state of mind. No dating apps, going everyday to dancing classes and meeting new people, new girls everyday.

Today it's the last dance class until 10 of January.

 

I find this very very helpful as well [so in case anyone didnt know it yet]:


(or read the book "atomic habits"]

https://www.artofmanliness.com/character/behavior/how-to-quit-porn/

 

Good video ! All common sense, well organized ! Thanks for sharing brother!

 

thx - Im glad I could help in a way !

 

Great well done - stay the course!

 

Welcome - stopping a bad habit at 21 buys you freedom for the rest of your adult life, which has only just begun

 

No problems on day 2! I started learning Russian today as a little side thing, and it's been pretty interesting so far! I don't have any practical reason to learn it, other than it's a language that interests me, but perhaps I could use it to set goals for myself. Onto day 3

 

Day 318

 

Checking in. All good

 

Day 16 complete.

no phishing, time with wife. I am still on holidays. Today we are going to a youth christian conference, which will end on sunday, so I may not post every day.

 

0 days >> Nazgûl (I was once a man, a King, now fallen to the power of PMO)

I think horniness is natural and just like any other emotion should not be suppressed. But we souldn't give in to it. In a way, PMO is a way to suppress our horniness.

 

Day 3

I have not been accountable for the past couple of weeks, and it suck. At first, I took a step back and told myself I have to get to 7 days and that this is the only way. To step back and just read and apply without spending time and energy on telling my story.

Afterwards I was so shocked that it worked that I thought to myself that maybe that is the secret and stayed quit for another week and even made it to day 16.

And then came the fall, and a week of daily failures.

So no I’m here and I’m back.

In the past couple of week or so I’ve been able to install a porn blocker on my phone that really helped me avoid faping but I’ve found a way around it and as a result I’ve crippled my phone even more to try and block the other “leeks” in the dam. And in the last couple of day I’ve simply went to google images and searched for pornstars and PMO in a form that had no real pleasure or novelty. And on some level, I think it is better that at least I didn’t get sucked in into hours of binging.

Anyway… kind of sad, kind of tired of this fight. But just trying to keep my head up high and hope for the best. I’m on day 3 but I just don’t feel like a winner at the moment. Maybe it’s just a side effect.

 

Checkin in - Day 2
I decided to do the check in early in the (next) morning cuz relapses sometimes happened at night.

 

I agree that feeling lust is dangerous because if I didn’t have sex with my wife, I didn’t know what to do with that lust. But it’s natural to have it and we only avoid it because it may lead us in bad ways like you said.

But I am not sure wether you need to have sexual thoughts to be horny. And I don’t agree that thoughts about having sex with your wife are dirty, if you are going to have sex. And I don’t agree that having sex with your wife just for fun and intimacy is bad, I think it is necessary to have sex with your wife from time to time because being around a woman for most men creates a desire for sex naturaly - we are mammals after all.

This is why apostle Paul told us to have a wife if we are like most men and have a strong desire for sex. So that by having sex and lust we would not be sinning and we would not be controlled by our desires and going in circles like you described. By giving our desires to another person (and to that person only!) we make sure it doesn’t happen (unles that person is also an addict).

So (like Paul) even though I feel like it would be best not to have sex or any sexual desires at all it is better to have it with one person then to have it with many (in this case PM would be like sex with many).

And I believe that procreation is irrelevant, now that we have figured out that the best option is not to have sexual desires or sex at all. And I don’t believe that God prohibits contraception or planning your family, I think he gives us a choice.

All in all I understand your point. And I am trying to controll my desire even for my wife, because it also may have bad consequences. But this doesn’t stop me from seeing good in sex.

 

Day 3. All good here. Sipping my morning tea!

Note:
Nothing is more beautiful thean a humble girl!

 

I can feel you brother... Im also tired of this and tired of other things as well...
Ask yourself: Why am I tired? If you think about it - maybe its something good. You are so tired of something that happens all the time and that determine your life in a way you dont want it to. You are tired because you maybe think " when will it end? - i dont like this anymore - It feels like im doing no progress at all" but I think you do progress. Just feelin tired is a progress if you look at it the right way. Keep going !! Emotions show you the way^^

 

DAY ONE in the Lord of the Rings Challenge.. Being an Orc is still pathetic but patience and perseverance is the key. Every little helps. Rome wasn't built in a day.

Yesterday: I exercised, took a cold shower and kept a journal. (I did what I always used to do and which always failed).

What really worked was the fact that I'm here in this forum. I'm not alone in this shit. Loneliness and not being connected are the KEY FACTORS.

Secondly, I'd like to thanked Bob Rebuilder for his piece of advice - thought control is crucial here as well. I was prepared that doubts of the sick mind will come eventually. I was ready for the withdrawal effects - I woke up in the middle of the night (breathlessness, dry throat, dry nose) - just went to the kitchen took a sip of water and used a nose spray. I sucked it up. There was a strong urge. I knew the scenario but I didn't give up. Additionally, it would suck to remain a nazgul for the rest of my life. After reporting at this forum and failing, I would feel like a fraud.

So be ready for the withdrawal. It will hit you but don't give up. NOFAP is worth the effort. Your life is worth the effort.