Thank you @-Angel-, I feel like this is all now or never. Either I release myself and break free from this zombieland with this streak, or I will never be able to do it. My addiction is trying really hard to get me back, but I can’t. I’ve relapsed a dozen times through years, so I must do something that I basically never done before. Even if it hurts. But eventually it will end well, I won’t regret it, ever.
Reset today Made 10 days and then reset in the early hours with insomnia and fatigue. This month has proven difficult with resets where last month was great. Think I need to return to checking in online more often I used to use PMO during the day when bored or restless, but now I'm more mindful during the day and my last 3 resets have all come in the wee hours of the morning when I'm not fully thinking and just want to get back to sleep.. any suggestions to help find more mindfulness when not even fully mental present?
La pillule bleue: J'ai pris quelques jours pour me remettre en bon état, et maintenant je suis prêt à gagner la pillule rouge.
Got just a low point yesterday, almost lose the battle but the rule of no p-sub in the reboot helps me, thanks @-Angel- for share the idea of this one here. Checking in -Operator of the Logos
Day 11 - Resistance Operative No Porn✅ No Masturbation✅ No Orgasm✅ No P-Subs ✅ Great effort in resisting the use of p-subs! It's a secret addiction, and if you can fight that alongside PMO, you'll be far stronger in the long run.
Reboot. Day 0! I was kinda pissed off the day i did reboot. Well, back to training more of pre-frontal cortex.
Day 141 - The Keymaker "You're unlocking the secrets of no PMO. You've accessed a renewed confidence, better physical appearance, increased mental strength. There is more to find. Use the keys to unlock more treasures." I am no longer hard on myself for getting triggered and/or having urges. They simply come and go for me at this point. The obsession or addiction isn't really quite there anymore. When I get triggered or get urges, I know it isn't gonna lead me to porn usage or p-subs. It doesn't lead me to anything. It's almost like the power that porn had over me is gone. But because I still get triggered and get urges and even wet dreams too (mainly due to sexless dating I think), maybe I still don't want the power of porn or lust to leave me. I'm also not having sex these days because the woman I am talking to is still adamant on no sex before marriage. I started meditating consistently and oh how I miss guided meditation, it is great. I recommend the headspace app.
