The Mighty That Fell ~ Squeaky Soul's Journal

Yup! Thanks IGY.

I felt like not doing any assignment today, because I am technically ahead. In a motivational video I was listening to a few days ago, the speaker says that if you want to stay in first place, or if you want to stay successful, you must still have the mind set that you haven't reached that position yet. So, for example: You are running a race. You get into first place. You need to have the mindset of whoever would be in second to stay first.

I was proud of myself today. For the first time in a while I wasn't eyeballing the women that I am usually around. Even though most were wearing revealing clothing, I didn't let my eyes wonder! I know I am only 13 days in, but this is sign of improvement right?

~SS

 

Dude,

My balls are really big. Like, since i haven't had a release, my balls are pretty damn big. It hurts to sit or lay down.

~SS

 

Hello,

Shuffling along with my assignments. Almost done with Junior year of high school!!!!!!!!!!!!

~SS

 

My ballzinis are back to normal. I had a wet dream a few days ago, so I am all backz to normalz.

~SS

 

Alright everyone,

I haven't done a writing exercise in a while, and staying on top of all my transgressions is really important in this healing process.

I promise, I will share it with you within a few hours.

~SS

 

Here's what I promised:

Triumphs:

Keeping busy,
Staying Motivated,
Not dwelling on temptation,
Making a plan for the summer (So I don't just waste time)

Set-Backs:

Not reading the bible,
Not praying as often as I should,
Not meditating,
Dwelling on depressing thoughts.

Conclusion:
I am very scared that I will fall back into an unproductive depression. I am on such a roll. I miraculously, despite recent events, by the grace of God, made it through the end of Junior year in high school. I am trying to do the important stuff now that I am older. I am working on getting my driving permit. Soon, I'll start studying for my Eagle Scout board of review (interview where they decide if they'll make you an eagle scout). I am a little bit too busy. I have forgotten to make time with God, as stated above in my list of set-backs.

~SS

 

Writing exercise

Triumphs:

*Keeping busy
*Giving up social media for a week (The ones I have are: Facebook and Snapchat. I am also limiting my phone use)
*Prayerful through the storms
*Keeping calm

Set-Backs:

*Low Motivation
*Neglecting the use of essential oils
*Neglecting Bible reading

Conclusion:
Looks good. I have more triumphs than set-backs. Although, the low motivation and neglecting the use of oils and bible reading are what have toppled me in the past. I will motivate myself, ingest some healthy oils, and read some chapters in the bible.

~$queaky $oul

 

I'll set an alarm. My habit for bible reading is right before bed, but now that summer break is here, I have been going to bed really late, and have been too tired to read. I'll set an alarm for earlier (10:00 p.m.)

~SS

 

Sorry for the inactivity.

I've been busy with my eagle scout rank, and I finally got it! I've also been diligentally working out. Please follow my workout journal: http://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/evolve-squeaky-souls-workout-journal.31824/#post-269601

Whoop whoop!!!

~SS

 

41 DAAAAAAYS!!!!!

DAAAAAAAAAAYUM!!!

~SS

 

It was my Board of Review! GLAD IT'S OVER!!!

Thanks everbody!!!

~SS

 

I will let you know when the Court of Honor is, and I'll email pictures!

Things are going great! Its 46 days, and this is the longest I've been in months! I'm celebrating the milestone by going moonlight fishing one of these days. Maybe tomorrow or so. I have been doing good, and I've just been reminding myself my old defense patterns of dealing with urges:

*Use essential oils
*Pray. For yourself, and others in similar situations
*Mmmm... I forgot... I should look at my old posts.

~SS