givingupallhope
Fapstronaut
To any one reading, i am 31y male, wanted to minimise fap to around 7-30 days and sometimes altogether since i started at 15y of age. and since about 2y ago wanted to quit it altogether with only this main mission in life. like nothing else matters to me, this is my whole life. not to toot my own horn(no pun) but I am good looking and have good energy and positive thinking but only thing holding me back is this fapping. like I seriously think that I am cursed for some bad deeds I did in the past.
Now with most of other people I read regarding fap effects are confidence, energy feel like shit, now i have those too BUT my main issue is that I have literally physical issues after fapping, now to clarify I do it about twice a week but whenever i do it, it affects me for next 3-7 days where I lose everything like my face, my eyes gets darker, lose attractiveness and like I lost my essence, feeling empty and cant face the sunlight etc to the point where I feel physically sick and ill, cant eat oily food, if i have long hair then that gives me anxiety. now I might be able to tone these down if i use anti-anxiety like lexotanil etc but it keeps me like a zombie, i think being zombie is the perfect word for my being. Cant enjoy movies, music etc too, because i am not my best self, think myself as a perfectionist thats why.
so its basically effect me physically and mentally. effecting my office life too.
hard to think a lot of people have same symptoms. if anyone does, plz reply as these might be my last days alive because I tried with every mindset but no avail.
anyone got a magic trick perhaps???
I know its deep rooted cause but i dont want anything else in life except for this.
also i am 31y old so drive for masturbation isnt that strong, its just out of boredom and depression in my life and fapping gives me a little boost for being alive but i went for 40days nofap before two times so i know if i got over these first few days it will change my life because my main cause of depression is this.
plz answer poll. very imp for me.
how can i do it now when I never been able to do it before. I think it’s permanent like i shouldn’t have started or should have stoped after first few times but now come on 16y of fap, plz tell me how can I stop??? or is this even possible. this question is getting on my nerves lately. I just want an answer.
ps: first time publicly opened my issue.
Now with most of other people I read regarding fap effects are confidence, energy feel like shit, now i have those too BUT my main issue is that I have literally physical issues after fapping, now to clarify I do it about twice a week but whenever i do it, it affects me for next 3-7 days where I lose everything like my face, my eyes gets darker, lose attractiveness and like I lost my essence, feeling empty and cant face the sunlight etc to the point where I feel physically sick and ill, cant eat oily food, if i have long hair then that gives me anxiety. now I might be able to tone these down if i use anti-anxiety like lexotanil etc but it keeps me like a zombie, i think being zombie is the perfect word for my being. Cant enjoy movies, music etc too, because i am not my best self, think myself as a perfectionist thats why.
so its basically effect me physically and mentally. effecting my office life too.
hard to think a lot of people have same symptoms. if anyone does, plz reply as these might be my last days alive because I tried with every mindset but no avail.
anyone got a magic trick perhaps???
I know its deep rooted cause but i dont want anything else in life except for this.
also i am 31y old so drive for masturbation isnt that strong, its just out of boredom and depression in my life and fapping gives me a little boost for being alive but i went for 40days nofap before two times so i know if i got over these first few days it will change my life because my main cause of depression is this.
plz answer poll. very imp for me.
how can i do it now when I never been able to do it before. I think it’s permanent like i shouldn’t have started or should have stoped after first few times but now come on 16y of fap, plz tell me how can I stop??? or is this even possible. this question is getting on my nerves lately. I just want an answer.
ps: first time publicly opened my issue.
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