THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Checking in.
On the same day I failed I had my first kick boxing class.
I was told it would be exhausting and tough and well it was.
The thing is I resisted binging ang relapsing further to keep my energy for the training and it worked.
I guess having something positive and challenging to look forward to keeps gives you motivation to be responsible and stay away from harm.
I keep fighting, day by day, until I'm free.

 

Oh man about getting angry a lot and quickly irritated by people around me is more present in my life now than ever before! Today I almost had a verbal fight with a guy who was walking around in the gym without a shirt (and he eats McD a lot and is just chubby) and was throwing the barbell to the floor while doing just superlight warm up weights... Sometimes I'm better off in a wooden cabin somewhere in nature where I can chop down trees all day long.

Also agree with you about not being immune to the female effect. Especially when I go to the gym and all women are now wearing these immensely tight and uplifting Gym Shark pants and tops where nothing is a secret anymore...and here I am trying to get rid of this oversexualized mindset

 

Day 409
What is love...Baby don't hurt me...No more

 

Day 61 saiyans

Feeling a roller coaster of emotion. But I think this is just the way of processing repressed emotion. Keep going saiyans
Fight or die

 

Day 30

Time to upgrade to the mighty oozaru!

 

day 4-i might lose i am feeling sad and shit what should i do i got 3 days without doing but its looking difficult now

 

@hunterxr the worst is yet to come. The first 2-3 weeks are the worst, I have failed on the third week countless times. There is nothing I could say that would give you enough will power that you can do this. But you can, you always have a choice.
Ask yourself, would you want to be sitting in front of your computer and waste your time and energy fapping 10 years from now? How about 5? One year? The best time to stop is now. Stop everything else and make this your main goal. You can do this.

 

0/90 let's go!

 

Day 1 check in

 

Danced with the devil last night yall. Got out of the old pattern before it escalated further though and that’s definitely a win. Spent the weekend at my bro’s house out of town and had a great Saturday catching up with fam. Went to bed late and when I went to finally power down my phone (after midnight) I felt compulsively pulled to check into a dating platform which is a yellow light warning indicator for me. Saw a chick on there who dressed very edgy and provocative and felt tempted to look further at her profile. As is often the case they have links to their personal “fan page” and I clicked even further down the rabbit hole to her free(but still fully clothed) album. Very tempting stuff here, definitely playing with fire. I was so tempted I even pulled out my wallet to type in my credit card information and unlock paid content, but at the last minute decided to close the tab. Spiraled a few minutes wanting to reopen the link but ultimately closed it and went to bed. Feeling grateful that it didn’t escalate further but also recognizing how easily it could have happened.
(悟) Low Class Warrior ▬ Training in the ► SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE ◄

 

Day 410

 

Checking in.
I agree about the girls in the gym wearing too revealing, too tight outfits. It's terrible.
All this talk about sexualizing them yet endless attention seeking from their side.
At least call a spade a spade and stop pretending.

As for being immune to the sexual effect:
I was complaining to my grandpa once that girls I meet are irresponsible, slutty and are not interested in marriage and kids.
He told me that we people are drawn to sexual pleasures but as one (hopefully) becomes wiser over time, one will seek peace instead of pleasure.
I wish I can be like him one day, he was an honorable man.

@KaiokenX20 do you know what these emotions are about? What thoughts do you have when you feel them most?

 

Checking in relapsed.

Porn addiction is terrible, girls wearing skimpy or tight clothes in public is reality.

A toxic attitude about other peoples choices will not make life better. No one is responsible for how others react to them. Responsibility is about individual behavior because that is what can be controlled.

Pinch of a serenity prayer:
"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

 

Thanks you man you know just because i read this message i was able to succeed todays day .

 

Day 32

Did some meditation. Did some Japanese practice as well for 15 minutes. Later afternoon I'll be training in crossfit.

 

Day 63 saiyans

Forgot to check in yesterday.

@MJ Warrior 93 Congrats brother on ascending

@Against_the_demon_in_myself Mostly in regards to the things I let slide in the past. Disrespect, wanting to say no, not speaking my mind. It really angers me, although I know the reason that its all coming back now is because I never dealt with the negativity nor learnt from it. But its time.

 

Relapsed yesterday at night.
I handled the day quite well but couldn't sleep at night.
My mind was going to sexual memories again and again.
Eventually I started M. I then got my phone to check photos of the girl I remembered and that led to PMO.

I need to do something to sleep better and use my willpower to get through such cases.
I need to stay away from fantasizing, it is a slippery slope.
I have resisted similar situations in the past and they were much more intense. So I know I can do this.

@Thadeus Tuffington I don't agree with this approach.
You can have this attitude that each girl can dress however she wants and no one should judge her for it.
I agree with the first part, but not the second.
You can wear something that outlines your pussy in detail and I can judge you negatively for it.
No one lives in a vacuum, no ones actions have 0 effect on others. Decency it still a thing in some places of this world.

@KaiokenX20 thanks for the response brother. I have struggles with similar things in the past, being too timid. Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and really trying to change ny behaviour for the better even if it was not comfortable helped me over time.
Forgiveness is also important, both for yourself and other.

 

I'm not arguing that the actions of others have no impact on us or vice versa. I am saying that it is a waste of time and energy to judge others for their actions. Adapting to one's environment is a more efficient investment of time because it will reliably yield positive results in 4-12 weeks.

Anyone can be negatively impacted by the people around them. People that we meet and the environment we live in does not naturally produce a negative result by itself because our internal response to the surrounding environment determines if it has a positive or negative impact on our well being. We can be the problem or the solution. A Locus of Control refers to an individual's perception about the underlying main causes of events in his/her life, the idea I want to share is that it is vital to develop an internal locus of control instead of an external locus.

I think venting is a effective coping mechanism but a slippery slope. Venting can devolve into habits that focus more on putting others down than building us up and should be practiced with awareness and consideration.

Checking in.

 

Day 6- got wierd symptoms all of a sudden that made me stressed more than usual but it worked out after all, btw does ejacuation is considered masturbation??

 

Thank you, brother