THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Day 29.

I've been having difficult on sleeping this whole week every night and I'm not sure why. And I forgot to meditate yesterday, it's not cool for me.

I'm gonna start reading another book by the end of this weekend.

 

Day 190: Only 10 days left to the next level!

I slept reasonably well, had a nice relaxing day yesterday: went to the gym with a friend in the morning, read a good book in the afternoon and ate a good meal and had a fun salsa class in the evening. But yesterday slept a bit restless and woke up at 4AM, luckily could fall asleep again after a while and woke up at 7:30. Still felt a bit groggy / lethargic yesterday and thought was due to the busy day at work the day before. I did take a nap around 4PM which was nice but felt rushed / stressed later and felt it in the evening. Normally tired at around 9PM, now still awake at 11PM.

Went to bed and slept pretty oke, woke up again in the middle of the night, sat on the couch for a few minutes and slept till 6:20 which is oke again. Still felt groggy / lethargic again today but a bit more relaxed. Work was oke-isch but still felt more groggy afterwards. Feel somewhat demotivated and lightly cynical / depressed. Could this be me having side effects from not MO for 5 days? And or is it part of my no porn streak? Or something else? I don't know, apart from dating, women and a sexless life everything else is going good to very good. Just cannot seem to find any motivation in a lot of things and especially trying to contact / date women online since the last 5 women I spoke to lead to nothing. I even dreamt of hugging with a nice woman I know who has given me buying signals in the past but is married... that was nice. I do have an interesting click with a woman online who lives in my city but is out of the country for 6-8 weeks for her work / visiting her family... Maybe I'll go for another stroll in the park and read a book before trying to go to sleep and hope I'll feel better tomorrow.

Frustrated lonely guy, out!

 

Day zero

 

Day 3- it was quite difficult on day 2 but i managed to recover myself need more power

 

Day 125 in progress.
The last week has been busy, keeping me away from devices most of free time.

I can say I have kicked the habbit of automatically searching for naked pics (brain candy). In the first 3 months of my reboot this was mostly a conscious effort every time I was picking up my phone.
But I have just realised now I don't have that thought anymore.

Still angry a lot. There are many moments during my day that I see things that annoy me, like lazy work colleagues, or people playing the power games, or my kid acting out. At least I am better at keeping my shit together and doing my work.

Still not imune the female effect. I was watching the clip @Lexro84 posted the other day and being a celibate resonates so much with me. I would be so much happier just to be imune to any sexual desire.
Now as summer is here there are so many more women showing off their bodies (insta-porn culture). It's hard to not notice them.

Stay strong everyone, one day at a time!

 

Checking in.
On the same day I failed I had my first kick boxing class.
I was told it would be exhausting and tough and well it was.
The thing is I resisted binging ang relapsing further to keep my energy for the training and it worked.
I guess having something positive and challenging to look forward to keeps gives you motivation to be responsible and stay away from harm.
I keep fighting, day by day, until I'm free.

 

Oh man about getting angry a lot and quickly irritated by people around me is more present in my life now than ever before! Today I almost had a verbal fight with a guy who was walking around in the gym without a shirt (and he eats McD a lot and is just chubby) and was throwing the barbell to the floor while doing just superlight warm up weights... Sometimes I'm better off in a wooden cabin somewhere in nature where I can chop down trees all day long.

Also agree with you about not being immune to the female effect. Especially when I go to the gym and all women are now wearing these immensely tight and uplifting Gym Shark pants and tops where nothing is a secret anymore...and here I am trying to get rid of this oversexualized mindset

 

Day 409
What is love...Baby don't hurt me...No more

 

Day 61 saiyans

Feeling a roller coaster of emotion. But I think this is just the way of processing repressed emotion. Keep going saiyans
Fight or die

 

Day 30

Time to upgrade to the mighty oozaru!

 

day 4-i might lose i am feeling sad and shit what should i do i got 3 days without doing but its looking difficult now

 

@hunterxr the worst is yet to come. The first 2-3 weeks are the worst, I have failed on the third week countless times. There is nothing I could say that would give you enough will power that you can do this. But you can, you always have a choice.
Ask yourself, would you want to be sitting in front of your computer and waste your time and energy fapping 10 years from now? How about 5? One year? The best time to stop is now. Stop everything else and make this your main goal. You can do this.

 

0/90 let's go!

 

Day 1 check in

 

Danced with the devil last night yall. Got out of the old pattern before it escalated further though and that’s definitely a win. Spent the weekend at my bro’s house out of town and had a great Saturday catching up with fam. Went to bed late and when I went to finally power down my phone (after midnight) I felt compulsively pulled to check into a dating platform which is a yellow light warning indicator for me. Saw a chick on there who dressed very edgy and provocative and felt tempted to look further at her profile. As is often the case they have links to their personal “fan page” and I clicked even further down the rabbit hole to her free(but still fully clothed) album. Very tempting stuff here, definitely playing with fire. I was so tempted I even pulled out my wallet to type in my credit card information and unlock paid content, but at the last minute decided to close the tab. Spiraled a few minutes wanting to reopen the link but ultimately closed it and went to bed. Feeling grateful that it didn’t escalate further but also recognizing how easily it could have happened.
(悟) Low Class Warrior ▬ Training in the ► SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE ◄

 

Day 410

 

Checking in.
I agree about the girls in the gym wearing too revealing, too tight outfits. It's terrible.
All this talk about sexualizing them yet endless attention seeking from their side.
At least call a spade a spade and stop pretending.

As for being immune to the sexual effect:
I was complaining to my grandpa once that girls I meet are irresponsible, slutty and are not interested in marriage and kids.
He told me that we people are drawn to sexual pleasures but as one (hopefully) becomes wiser over time, one will seek peace instead of pleasure.
I wish I can be like him one day, he was an honorable man.

@KaiokenX20 do you know what these emotions are about? What thoughts do you have when you feel them most?

 

Checking in relapsed.

Porn addiction is terrible, girls wearing skimpy or tight clothes in public is reality.

A toxic attitude about other peoples choices will not make life better. No one is responsible for how others react to them. Responsibility is about individual behavior because that is what can be controlled.

Pinch of a serenity prayer:
"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

 

Thanks you man you know just because i read this message i was able to succeed todays day .