10 Go left Go left Go left righ left Cuz sometimes u feel weak & when u feel weak u feel u wanna just give up
3 days no PMO 0 days less sugar. 3 days no alcohol. 1 14 day and one 12 day streak. 55 days no Facebook. Prayed my chaplet of Divine Mercy. Prayed my litanies. Talks with God. Rosary. I woke up with an e this morning. That does not happen very often. Been months. It was months before that. I went years without that. I don't even remember getting e's outside of when I act out in a very long time. I am healing. Had a very early memory of my anxiety and depression this morning too. I wish I could pinpoint when it was to see what what going on in my life at the time. I guess this is maybe a need for control that I need to let go of. I was hanging out at my friend's house playing road hockey. I was being bullied by a new kid in town. I felt very low. I was thinking and feeling that my friend does not like me. I said to my friend "You don't even like me" and I ran home. That was part of my problem. I believed that nobody liked me. I always felt like such a loser. 3 days. Part of me wants to get excited and full of myself. Those lead to my downfall every time. I need to be grateful to God for my 3 days. I need to thank God for every day I am sober. I can't get full of myself. Humility, humility, humility.
Wait a minute it"s 11 I was wrong Im really astonished from my willpower Could never imagine i"ll start a streak Hope to climb the mountain to the top & never let u down guys
Day 13/90. First day of class was great. Grad school interview tomorrow. Minor relapse with partner (just O, no PM) but not a reset. Gonna try and finish out the rest full monk mode.
Back to day 0 after I looked at a torrent pop up ad for much longer than I should've...but it all wasn't for nothing because I didn't let it bring me to full PMO relapse (no M or O). Gonna start this new run again and i'm still feeling much stronger than I did when I started! Keep going guys!
37/90 I've noticed that the less I look at women in the street the less urges come. Have a good day everyone
I think I'm finally ready to do this and to keep it up this time. So once again, for the 100th time, this is day 1.