1/90 Today I put a real end to a relationship that was eating at me. It wasn’t really going anywhere so I hope that takes a load off my shoulders. I’ve relapsed twice now Hope it’s the last
61/90 I remember the first time I used masturbation. Clear as the day. 2008. 12 years a slave to this madness of an addiction. I've never since then gone more than 2 months without it. Today is a reminder that all is possible if I don't lose hope.
A new day, another day of Nofap! 21/90. I think it has been over year since I have gone 3 weeks without P. And although I did have a peek twice the past 3 weeks, it feels good. What helped me is putting all my attention to a project. It can be anything, just devote an hour or two to it everyday, something you're passionate about. I think it needs to be something you create, so instead of playing videogames, buy that Lego Deathstar, write that music, build that business whatever. To everyone in single digits - for me day 0 to 10 were the hardest. But after day 10 till now, it really flew by because my mind was occupied with something else, and not with "ishouldpmo ishouldntpmo". Pick a goal, direct your attention to it, and feel some flow! Good luck everyone
Four days down and I feel really steady. Had a good sleep last night, usually get up at 6:30 but had another two hours as i felt really tired. Been working hard lately, physically, so I altered my routine to fit for today. Up into a cold shower while my coffee made. Sat outside and wrote for a while. Autumn is here now and I think the cooler weather makes things easier, the heat is definitely a stressor for me. Something I've noticed is I feel more mature at the moment. I feel like a sensible adult in my interior demeanor. It's hard to describe, I think it's to do with being in control. I love it.
