Day 2. Did a U-turn 48-hours ago. Walking away from PMO-binging and some toxic places on the web. Today I take another step in the opposite direction.
I will make it 90. Thanks for the wish. May the force be on my side and yours too. Starwars reference.
Guys i"ve dump idea Is there anything called spiritual FAP I swear i "ve seen it That weird guy that closes his eyes & abra cadabra FAP without touch or porn WTH is that.......
Started Challenges August 21, 2019 Longest streak 147 days Current Challenge 28/90 no PMO A few day without visiting nofap but everything is great so far. I'm very (very) busy so it's easier not to relapse. Almost 1/3 of the challenge done ! Habit made: -cold shower -pray my chaplet -wake up early Habits to make: -schedule the day -sports
Now you don't have pmo you're seeing clearer, actually can see your situation. Sounds like somehow you are uneasy with it...is there more to life than porn and video games? I'm not insulting you there but I've experienced similar. I now really feel starved where I live, socially and creatively. It used to seem ok when I could pmo but now I have a big drive to get out of here.
3/90 Went out for a few beers last night, I hardly drink and I felt pretty drunk. Only five bottles but two would have been plenty. I had been feeling really lonely yesterday so I went out to the bar/cafe. Met some people I know so that was nice to chat. This morning though felt wrecked and also very introspective. I feel so heightened with abstaining from pmo, like I could just start crying sometimes. I feel lonely a lot I realise, I'm pretty good at feeding myself and sleep and I rarely feel angry. Frustrated yes, sometimes. I am so looking forward to begin filling these huge gaps in my life, I guess I have started to. But I want to be overflowing with activities and friends and family. And a partner, life is definitely for sharing with somebody, someone special.
No brother, you are right. Before Nofap I was dead, and now I am alive again and feel ashamed from myself how I lived before. Before my life was only video games, PMO, and 2 sex experiences that were a failure for me. I didn't like to go outside. BUT Now it is completely the opposite, all my friends till now are not able to understand what happened and how I am a completely different guy so fast. When I finish the 90 days, I will write my story that will be very unique and I have a lot to tell. Now, Gym, go out with friends and girls, club, any activity outside home .... always. I am still in the beginning and I begin to see the huge difference. But I can tell now that PMO is like heroine if not worse. Till now no P for months, it is already dead. for M: 7 days than 1 relapse, 7 days then 1 relapse, 11 days then 1 relapse but now I will do it.
