35 and older accountability, Group 2

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by persona2903, Nov 13, 2019.

  1. persona2903

    persona2903 Fapstronaut

    Sorry for my absence ... I am with COVID-19 and very tired! Today I will try to update the ranking.
     
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  3. Steveal3aneef1

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  4. Steveal3aneef1

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    so here we go, started the journey again I hope i can learn more and help as many as I can in this group
     
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  5. CraftyDad

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    I'm on day 4 now, that has usually been where the urges get very strong and make me relapse. Being bored while working in front of a computer all day is making it really tough. I guess I need to go outside, get some fresh air and hopefully clear my mind a bit.
     
  6. Steveal3aneef1

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    I sometimes get overwhelmed by work too, as I feel I need to finish my tasks asap, but then I realize this is a trap I drag myself into it, you gotta take it easy and take care of yourself, try this Pomodoro technique, take a break for 5 minutes every 25 minutes of work
     
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  7. Steveal3aneef1

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    Started to learn about feeling and how to properly express them, I think it's the reason why I started watching P in the first place
     
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  8. richsimm22

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    Porn addicts definitely watch porn in order to repress emotions and use porn and masturbating as a way of soothing. This is always a temporary fix and doesn't get to the root of the problem. I've noticed more emotions surfacing. I take this as an opportunity to sit with them and feel them. Most people have underlying anger and anxiety. If you want to get the best info about addictions and emotions then look up Gabor Mate.
     
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  9. Steveal3aneef1

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    sure imma check him out
     
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  11. persona2903

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    A side effect of COVID is an unusual rise in desire for PM. An attack like I hadn't suffered in months. Obviously it is a consequence of isolation, boredom and the avoidance of the state of discomfort through the pleasure of sex ...
    I hope I am strong enough not to go back to the old practices.
    Greetings to each one and may the Lord bless you!
     
  12. Steveal3aneef1

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    Keep up the great work, Covid affected my career, im currently unemployed, so islolation, loneliness and bordome are expcted guests every night
     
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  13. Prince Macintosh

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    I have read the rules and would like to join this group.

    Ex 12-stepper here, had over a year early on. Not liking some of my recent behaviors and returns to secrecy. Need some accountability and goals and a brotherhood again!
     
  14. CraftyDad

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    Today I found myself searching the web for naughty terms, then closing the browser, only to do the same thing later. I didn't see any porn, but I know it's a slippery slope. If allow that I know it won't be long for another relapse, so to follow my own rules I'm resetting my counter.
     
  15. persona2903

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    I was 706 days without PM. But today I succumbed to P.

    I thought of overlooking it and not counting it, so as not to discourage those who are fighting whith this ... but our fight is based on sincerity and I think I would disappoint all my colleagues in the accountability group if I hid this shameful fact.

    Even now I feel intense desires for PM, who have been wildly awakened in these last few days.

    Why did I go back to P?
    I think they are the causes that always beset us ... but in my journal I detail what happened to me, in case you want to know more.
    Now we will have to rebuild, hoping that this fall will not be long and soon I will be back in the race.
     
  16. persona2903

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    You ' re in Prince!!
     
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  17. boyrose

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    I've been pmo daily for a week or so now. There is something missing in life for sure. That's what it feels like.

    PS. Need for reset my day counter tonight.
     
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  18. richsimm22

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    I'm doing much better than I thought I could ever do at the moment. I curiously opened up a porn site about 2 weeks ago but was literally on it for seconds to look at what was new and then came off it. So I only seen tiny thumbnail pics for seconds. I wasn't going to reset my counter for something as tiny as that. If I'd reset I'd have provably binged too making it worse. Its probably akin to an alcoholic opening a bottle of whiskey and having a sniff and putting it back. Apart from that tiny episode I've been PM free for nearly 60 days now. Everyday is a new record.
     
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  19. Prince Macintosh

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    I think you did the right thing. For me, if I reset the counter, I get the ol' "might as well go whole hog" mentality, and it can be extremely discouraging. Of course, if you DON'T reset, you risk doing the behaviors again and again, so it's dicey. I think coming somewhere and doing something and telling someone is probably the best course of action, so good on ya.

    Thanks for letting me join everyone. Will post updates daily, as I have some time carved out each morning for updates and work on recovery. This morning will be 24 hours, so a good start. I have plenty to work for, plenty to be grateful for, and plenty of reasons to get sober. Hope everyone has a wonderful porn free day.
     
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  20. ANewFocus

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    Much love man. What you accomplished was amazing. I’m proud of you and to know you. 706 days provides tremendous hope to all of us and shows how strong we can become.
     
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