Day 13/90 No PM (ends May 10) Day 394 attempting this challenge Day 137 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol Missed yesterday so 2 days posted here.
Day 7. Had an exhausting morning at the hospital, took away my whole morning and now I have this quite familiar depression and strong urges to use P to escape from that. Really struggling to be behind the computer and not look at something I shouldn't. I reinstalled my Time Out app that reminds me to look away from the computer every 15 minutes and walk away from it once every hour. This helps me at work to stay away from Facebook and bullshit like that. I know it will help me with stronger bullshit as well.
Day 0. This is not good. I do not want to keep doing this again and again. I want to get out of this loop.
Day 3 today. Lately I've been over-extended, helping others in my family with stuff. Today I'm taking some time to work on my own projects. Sometimes we need to prioritize our own needs to stay physically & mentally healthy. Doing a nofap challenge is one part of that for me, but to compliment that I need to do some exercise, meditation, reading, organizing, financial planning, etc. Taking time out sometimes to focus on your own needs is not selfish, it's just healthy self-care.
Fuuuck. I already had 3 15-minute stretches today of searching for stimulating material, haphazardly touching myself while doing so. Everytime I search for stuff that will make me able to bypass my BlockSite, only being able to stop myself after 15 minutes, and everytime afterwards I add the keywords I used and the pages I visited to the blocked keywords and pages so I can't go there again. I feel like such a loser. I'm gonna reset my counter one more time, but this has to be it. I have to improve my streak this time and make it to the 90 days. Shit has to stop.
I feel you and I get it. Let me just tell you that even though you do the stretches, remember that for PMO there is no one on one replacement. You're gonna have to do a whole lifestyle shift, a shift in the way you live your life. Start slow, but do several things to replace your old habits, not just one. And take it in phases, don't do everything at once. The most important things first, like your core responsibilities and then the rest. Do journal and see where you can improve in order to avoid making the same mistakes again. The Content Filter for your devices is also just a tool and not a solution, remember that as well. It's a good tool for people who kinda go on autopilot. But at the end our minds are the best filters there are. Watch this and download the reboot regimen guide (in case you didn't yet) and read it it's important: You can do this!
Day 14/90 No PM (ends May 10) Day 395 attempting this challenge Day 137 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol
Day 57!!! 2 months very soon! To be honest although I had sex last week, I still felt a flatline for a few days since I was really stressed at work and about some other stuff. It was really weird - I feel that I am sensitive down there but hardly any erection last 5 days. Keeping at it tho!
