Hi chiyu, I feel you. I had these situations at night and in the morning a lot. What helped me most in those situations was the self-talk technique. Remember, that a relapse is only as much of a growth opportunity as you make it. I might suggest to journal about this, and make sure to identify why you relapsed. Circumstances, Emotions and how you acted on the emotions. Do this and you will see that each time it is less likely, that you will repeat the same mistake again. In case you relapse again, repeat the process. Whatever you put energy into, grows and becomes stronger. So if you repeat this journaling process each time, your mind will grow stronger and your feelings as a result as well. That also means that journaling properly after a relapse is a rewiring process. Yes, that's right, you can make actual progress even after a relapse. Journaling is not only good for people with addictions but for people in general. It can be a life changer. There is a saying by Einstein: "insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results". Keep going strong!