Day 11. Yesterday was a TOTAL nightmare !! at night my brain randomly got horny as hell I could not fall asleep for the life of me, I started walking like a crazy person around the house with lights off, all night, with a hard erection until 4AM. While I was in bed trying to force myself to sleep I humped the bed sheets like a little kid for like total of 10 seconds. (just out of frustration, did not touch, did not climax, did not watch anything) I felt so weak at one point I started to question wether all this nofap was worth it. I got so angry I literally slapped myself very hard in the face that my wireless headset fell on the floor and broke a tip. Today i'm at work and only had 3 hours of sleep, feel horrible and unsure about if yesterday was a relapse or not. I underestimated how hard this challenge is
Good sleep is extremely important to counter urges . 2 things. Atleast Activities prior to 2-3 hrs of sleep should be set. Period. Think it through. I am not talking about scheduling . I am talking about having a list of activities that you will do before sleep. Reading book Reading news Reading professional / study article Talking to friends Walk on street Understanding finance These are some of the things I do. Coming to the 2nd point. Sleep is related to tiredness and satisfaction When you do the activities that /you find satisfaction in/builds you as a person / builds your identity , you are more likely to sleep better . In addiction it's important to track your completion rate of those activities DAILY. But tracking isn't enough . Affirmations have to be done. I say 2 things to myself before going to sleep , things that I have gratitude for and things I am proud of . Gratitude - friends , family . Pride - sticking to productive activities When you start practicing this internal satisfaction will come and it will be easy to ignore urges . Ultimately you will be able to sleep on time and your sleep will become deep. Hi . Apart from what I have said above. It's extremely important to fill your day with activities . At no time should you be able to not know what do i do now. It doesnt mean filling up your day with extremely boring or extremely productive things. It should be a mix. Apart from this - You can read the following books. The monk who sold his Ferrari The code of extraordinary mind Atomic habits These books helped me a lot.
A week of this last stint makes me more eager to go deep. Honestly I feel fresh about how things are progressing but seeing this single numbers makes me feel more anxious and a bit obsessive to do more. Haven't faced any urges or triggers but I did scrolled through something that is porn related yesterday. I did put off my internet by 11 bc I have some work to do as well read some books and I don't think I have much to worry about because I haven't caught up anything that is a trigger. Still I think its important to be self aware of your consciousness
I think its important to not use feelings of anxiety to act upon those those thoughts. It will eventually go away from your consciousness.
relapsed. lasted a bit. made progress. had better social interactions. but then again, i relapsed. I have a smart tv and found porn on there. blocked web browsing on my smart tv.
Day 52 report Ugh... For the past couple of days I've been going through the most nightmarish, painful, urges. When I say painful, I literally mean my body hurts from the intensity of these urges I'm having. It's like acid coursing through my veins burning me on the inside. It makes me sick to my stomach sometimes. The worst of it has passed thank goodness, but I was having trouble sleeping as a result of keeping myself together under the pressure. Well, it depends on what kind of magnesium you're taking. Personally, I take a liquid form of magnesium which has the highest absorption rate out of any magnesium supplement, so my experience may differ greatly from yours. If I remember correctly, I spoke about how magnesium can have a positive impact on your mood, which is true. It relaxes the muscles and reduces inflammation (which tends to cause stress). There is a massive list of chemical reactions that need magnesium in order to take place. It's an essential macro-nutrient that isn't talked about enough in my opinion. As far as the supplement you're taking, I've never heard of it, but from what I've seen it looks like it typically contains magnesium aspartate which you should actually avoid. From what I've read, your body breaks down the aspartate into two forms of neuro-toxic chemicals. If you must take a pill form of magnesium, then you should try looking for magnesium L-Threonate which to my knowledge is much easier to absorb than other pill forms and is also safe.
Absolutely I don't recommend it either . Though I believe fear in some cases is beneficial . Like we like to stay clear of genuine risks for our own safety. Porn is ruining us as man , human being , Robbing us of our potential . If I don't fear the outcome what is there to stop me . That's what addiction is . No sense of outcome.
2 things, this is the first time I have heard that when aspartate breaks down, it releases two chemicals. Man thats scary, I will definitely look more into it. And yes, my supplement has magnesium aspartate. I will surely look after L threonate the next time. In fact the company whose product i am using right now, Now Foods, has products in both categories. the ZMA that I am taking is launched by them for sports recovery and the Threonate that you mentioned is for brain ability. IN fact, from whatever little I have read of threonate after you recommended it, it seems much more direct and easily absorbable, so that is something I always prefer. Lets see how this supplementation goes after a month.
I decided to make it harder by including daily dopamine fast 3h before bed. (basically sitting in a dark room, closed windows, embracing boredom for 3 hours) i've been the smartest and most productive in my life in periods when I was bored, let's try this for a month or two
day 2- complete. the urges is still bad.it plays all kind of tricks in my head. like, "its no big deal ,go do it. u cant start fresh from tomorrow . "... i am having doubts that i can go through another day like this... someone please answer that for how many days i am going to have these kind of painful stages??
