Accountability for All
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higor pereira araujo
Fapstronaut
Welcome dudeI'm 22 year old guy.
I have wasted a lot of my time and consumed my mind in PMO. It always effects my productivity.it hurts me. When I PMO it sucks me because I break my self promise. It hurts my self esteem and self integrity.
I made many streaks of maximum one month. But for previous few month I was unable to resist this bullshit.
I'm going to do it again with my full fucking attention
Target:
90 day celebrity
improve spiritually
improve productivity (remain focused on my tasks)
gaining lean muscle mass
I hope that this accountable-community will be helpfull for me. I will try to visit the forum daily and will share my routine
higor pereira araujo
Fapstronaut
Checking in - Yesterday I had a few triggers at the library, I indulged a little bit because of the anxiety I was feeling. Basically, I have to do challenges to overcome my shyness. In the second challenge, I have to ask to a complete stranger if I can eat dinner at their home. That's going to be a hard one.
ZenYogi
Fapstronaut
Day 53
such begins day one of the ten day vacation. Yes thanks to my hp and so for helping me make this call. So often talks about a forty hours work week being too long and America should shorten it
so I started working less
It’s nice really I like it
I feel kinda bad for people who work more but we all make our choices . I don’t have kids and I don’t buy much. No gym or memberships. Just stay home or go out and do cheap or free things. Save a lot of money by not spending much so I can work less and still save
that’s my balance. Everyone has theirs.
such begins day one of the ten day vacation. Yes thanks to my hp and so for helping me make this call. So often talks about a forty hours work week being too long and America should shorten it
so I started working less
It’s nice really I like it
I feel kinda bad for people who work more but we all make our choices . I don’t have kids and I don’t buy much. No gym or memberships. Just stay home or go out and do cheap or free things. Save a lot of money by not spending much so I can work less and still save
that’s my balance. Everyone has theirs.
NeverGiveUP...
Fapstronaut
Day 2 
Day was quite busy.
Worked(study)for 5 hours
Train: 2hours
Day was quite busy.
Worked(study)for 5 hours
Train: 2hours
TheBluePrint
Fapstronaut
Checking in
Punisher7734
Fapstronaut
NNN is no nut november, it's kind of like a meme that everyone participates in when november rolls around. Basically no pmo for november.
I guess i'll use this as my check in, I'm doing okay. I installed brainbuddy on my phone and tablet which prompts me to checkin and asks me questions of how im doing. Has a journal, meditation and steps to take for thr day. So far so good!
higor pereira araujo
Fapstronaut
Checking in - I`m doing good, but I didn`t sleep much last night. Guys, I have a new crush, I met her on the bus and for fuck sake, she`s the cutest and prettiest thing ever.
Wish me luck.
Wish me luck.
ZenYogi
Fapstronaut
@higor pereira araujo good luck *
Day 54
I don’t feel like doing anything today
I’m on vacation yea!
Day 54
I don’t feel like doing anything today
I’m on vacation yea!
jakeFromStateFarm117
Fapstronaut
Thanks punisher for the clarification!
Installed some fences yesterday! Because I was so busy doing that yesterday, I didn’t have much time in front of a computer to be triggered. I count this a blessing, but its not repeatable especially because I have a computer job. Gotta stay strong and keep on.
Installed some fences yesterday! Because I was so busy doing that yesterday, I didn’t have much time in front of a computer to be triggered. I count this a blessing, but its not repeatable especially because I have a computer job. Gotta stay strong and keep on.
NeverGiveUP...
Fapstronaut
Day 3
jakeFromStateFarm117
Fapstronaut
Relapsed 
TheBluePrint
Fapstronaut
Checking in
ZenYogi
Fapstronaut
Day 55
Amazed that I'm at 55 days that feels like so much. The last six months I haven't been able to string together more than a month streak so I'm really happy about this. The accountability calls are a great help to me. Makes the biggest difference for me to be a part of a group of fapstronauts that are all trying to stay clean.
This is my sobriety hat trick. My third and hopefully final addiction to curb. First it was substances, then video games, now PMO
I'm sorry I keep spouting the same story, but it's my story. Once I make it to a year I've left each of the support groups and tried to live my life without it. It's gone well both times. And if I hadn't done that I wouldn't have realized yet another new addiction ahd sprouted up that needed to be handled.
Thus would enter a new group. Now it's the third group. I'm confident I'll beat this thing. I will make it a year no PMO I hope and wish that I will do it. Desperately ...I want to stay off pmo for life.
-_-zZzz
I really believe I can do it. The accountability group helps me so much. I remember being in AA. Some people have long streaks of many years. They're at every meeting. Always talking about how great AA is and stuff. I read through the AA book twice! Cover to cover. Then I understood somehow. The most important metaphor : They said that some game in a movie the guy plays and plays but can never win. Then he realizes no matter how many times he plays he will always lose. That the only way to beat the game was to stop playing. So he stops playing the game. And lives the rest of his life in peace no longer addicted to trying to beat the game.
How many times have we all 'tried to moderate this time'? Done it only on Sundays? Tried to only use magazines or something less arousing? Edged and eventually relapsed? Done well for a few months and stopped doing what was working all those months?
The only way to win against PMO is to stop playing with it. Stop sticking a fork in an electric socket thinking the 1000th time it's not going to shock you. And put the fork down. Leave the PMO electrical socket alone. Just get the heck away from it and stay away. Keep doing the things that help you stay sober.
Sighs. Who am I talking to?
I sat in those AA rooms full of every kind of person. We were all drunks in recovery. No one wanted to listen to a word I said unless it was joke. I've always been told I'm fun to be around. Everyone thought they knew better. Everyone talked trash. I just sat silently. Waiting. Struggling. Finding ways to stay sober that worked for me.
I saw dozens of people over the year come in and out. Sober a few months disappear a few, rinse and repeat. The endless cycle of addiction. I saw people in their 50's or older still buying hard drugs caught in the cycle of addiction.
I always thought the same thing when I saw them come back on Day 0, "I don't want that to be me." When I saw people with long streaks I'd observe them. Read whatever they wrote, listen to whatever they said. Ask them their opinions on how to stay sober. What worked for them? I took in the freely given, subtle energy that radiated off of their beings.
I felt I could stay sober. A year passed. No one really learned my secret. I tried to sponsor people. Tried to talk to people about sobriety. It was rare that it helped anyone. Once in a while, someone wouldn't really do what I suggested. But just talking to me somehow helped them find their own solution and they'd end up building a long sober streak within the next months.
I think they took in the freely given energy radiating off of me and found their own solution. Perhaps they had that thing that helps people get sober. A determination to find a way out of this trap called addiction.
Amazed that I'm at 55 days that feels like so much. The last six months I haven't been able to string together more than a month streak so I'm really happy about this. The accountability calls are a great help to me. Makes the biggest difference for me to be a part of a group of fapstronauts that are all trying to stay clean.
This is my sobriety hat trick. My third and hopefully final addiction to curb. First it was substances, then video games, now PMO
I'm sorry I keep spouting the same story, but it's my story. Once I make it to a year I've left each of the support groups and tried to live my life without it. It's gone well both times. And if I hadn't done that I wouldn't have realized yet another new addiction ahd sprouted up that needed to be handled.
Thus would enter a new group. Now it's the third group. I'm confident I'll beat this thing. I will make it a year no PMO I hope and wish that I will do it. Desperately ...I want to stay off pmo for life.
-_-zZzz
I really believe I can do it. The accountability group helps me so much. I remember being in AA. Some people have long streaks of many years. They're at every meeting. Always talking about how great AA is and stuff. I read through the AA book twice! Cover to cover. Then I understood somehow. The most important metaphor : They said that some game in a movie the guy plays and plays but can never win. Then he realizes no matter how many times he plays he will always lose. That the only way to beat the game was to stop playing. So he stops playing the game. And lives the rest of his life in peace no longer addicted to trying to beat the game.
How many times have we all 'tried to moderate this time'? Done it only on Sundays? Tried to only use magazines or something less arousing? Edged and eventually relapsed? Done well for a few months and stopped doing what was working all those months?
The only way to win against PMO is to stop playing with it. Stop sticking a fork in an electric socket thinking the 1000th time it's not going to shock you. And put the fork down. Leave the PMO electrical socket alone. Just get the heck away from it and stay away. Keep doing the things that help you stay sober.
Sighs. Who am I talking to?
I sat in those AA rooms full of every kind of person. We were all drunks in recovery. No one wanted to listen to a word I said unless it was joke. I've always been told I'm fun to be around. Everyone thought they knew better. Everyone talked trash. I just sat silently. Waiting. Struggling. Finding ways to stay sober that worked for me.
I saw dozens of people over the year come in and out. Sober a few months disappear a few, rinse and repeat. The endless cycle of addiction. I saw people in their 50's or older still buying hard drugs caught in the cycle of addiction.
I always thought the same thing when I saw them come back on Day 0, "I don't want that to be me." When I saw people with long streaks I'd observe them. Read whatever they wrote, listen to whatever they said. Ask them their opinions on how to stay sober. What worked for them? I took in the freely given, subtle energy that radiated off of their beings.
I felt I could stay sober. A year passed. No one really learned my secret. I tried to sponsor people. Tried to talk to people about sobriety. It was rare that it helped anyone. Once in a while, someone wouldn't really do what I suggested. But just talking to me somehow helped them find their own solution and they'd end up building a long sober streak within the next months.
I think they took in the freely given energy radiating off of me and found their own solution. Perhaps they had that thing that helps people get sober. A determination to find a way out of this trap called addiction.
higor pereira araujo
Fapstronaut
Checking in - yesterday I searched for sexy stuff, so I relapsed, but I stopped at middle of the process. I didn`t jerk of or anything.
Thadeus Tuffington
Fapstronaut
Day 1
Making no time for a relapse, I will get stuff done today.
Making no time for a relapse, I will get stuff done today.
Punisher7734
Fapstronaut
I relapsed today, but I identified a trigger from yesterday that may have contributed to it.
Also does anyone experience like a wave of tiredness/lethargy after a relapse? That's another thing i'm writing in my journal about the negative effects.
Also does anyone experience like a wave of tiredness/lethargy after a relapse? That's another thing i'm writing in my journal about the negative effects.