This may come off as odd. But I’m currently on day 1 after a series of relapsed yesterday, and something has been bothering me for the past month or two now. Maybe it’s anxiety because my recent streaks weren’t the longest ever since then, but I have this obsession. I’m so afraid to relapse all of the time that it’s gotten to me and (I know it’s not a relapse, but to me I think of the possible what if’s about it if you know what I mean) Even though I don’t watch porn, masturbate, orgasm and try my best to avoid fantasy, I’m obsessed with things touching my penis. Im afraid it will “ruin” my streak. It’s not as overdramatized as it may seem on this post. Everytime I walk, I have to make sure I have my legs alittle further apart then I used to (when I was on my big streaks I never worried about this). When I sleep I can’t sleep well because I’m making sure that my legs don’t squish my dick and cause pleasure (sounds fucked up, but it’s a serious issue I would like to end.) Yes, I know that “if I didn’t worry about it before, then why am I now?” Because in my head I think if I just try to ignore it and it causes pleasure, then it was intentional because I chose to sleep normal and who really knows if my brain could’ve gotten stimulation from it, yes, normal sleeping and walking. It’s really effecting my life, so if anyone can help me with advice to get over this, that would be awesome. Please let me know. Thanks.