I have looked at this website every now and then for the past few months and I think it would be good for me to finally get involved in this community. So, I guess just to introduce myself: I’m a 17 year old girl and I have struggled with an addiction to PMO since I was about 9 years old. I got my first computer for Christmas when I was about 9 and I ended up discovering, well, you know what. I didn’t understand it, but it made me feel that “certain way” and I tried imitating it. And I think that’s pretty much where the addiction began. By the time I realized what I was actually doing, it was too late. And so I’ve been addicted for about 8 years now, and for about half that time I didn’t go more than 2-3 days without PMO or MO. Sometimes it happened every day. It wasn’t until recently that I have really tried to reboot. Sometimes I go 2 or even 3 weeks without it, but not much past that. And for some reason, my urges have become stronger and more invasive and I have relapsed much more frequently than before. Sometimes the thoughts distract me from class lecture and I have to excuse myself from the room. I ended up relapsing again about an hour or so ago, and I was so heartbroken. I told myself, “Enough. You have to change something.” I think joining this website will help me feel some accountability and help me overcome the addiction. So many of my childhood and teenage years have been consumed by it and I just want to have my life back. I want to enjoy the little things again and not feel this sick feeling of guilt and disgust with myself. I want to be able to enjoy sex with a possible future husband and not feel dissatisfied or guilty. And most importantly, I want to do this so that I can get right with God. I’m so sick of repenting every day for something I know I can control. He has gotten me through my hardest times in my life and I feel awful knowing that I’m still not taking proper care of my body like I should. I’m a daughter of God, and I want to feel like it. I know that this journey might not be a smooth one, but I think it’s one that I need to take. I’m so thankful that this website exists. I really hope that it helps me.