I am male, 23. I’ve been watching porn since 8th grade, essentially introduced to it by kids my age who thought it was cool. Since then, I’ve watched it at least once a day up to now, save for the occasional day or week where I didn’t or couldn’t. I’ve tried to quit many times physically, mentally, and spiritually, but failed each time. I’ve also had sex with at least four women in my life, and while that might sound like a good thing, I think all of this is and has rewired my brain to think of women differently, and make it more difficult to get my exs off my mind. I constantly have thoughts of someone who did nothing but lied to me, yet I still want to go back to her just because I’ve banged her before. I’ve read a lot into neuroplasticity, and I’m afraid that I’ve rewired my brain to the point of no return, before it’s even fully developed. I feel hopeless, like I will never be able to quit porn or masturbating (essentially having sex with myself) or have a true, loving, intimate relationship with a woman I could love because I’ve been unknowingly reprogramming my brain to bond with multiple women and hundreds of images of women behind computer screens. All I’ve ever wanted in my life since 4th grade was to fall in love, but now, I’m afraid I’m unable to even mentally process or comprehend what that truly means for myself because of what I’ve done. I feel like I’ve dove too deep to swim back up. Is there really hope?