new, desperate and in need of freedom...

hi everyone,
I've been visiting the website on and off to look for ways to stop my addiction (porn+fapping) and I've like the fact that its active .. so Im here !
here is a little background of me :
Im a college student , Im a muslim and thats mainly why Im here ,I want to stop forever and free myself of the shame and guilt I carry , Im tired of being tired all the time and living like a zombie and sleeping all day.(I have put almost 10 kg ever since)
so my problem started 2 years ago at the start of my second semester in college .I was googling something ...well it was out of curiosity but I regret it now.

ever since ,it became a part of my life .. Im a person who thinks a lot anyway and that only made things worst ..I used to do it daily but i managed to do it every other day .. I've had some successful trials (went 16 days without it and relapsed and recently after a family member getting psychosis i stopped again for 10 days, and then some other 6 or 5 days here and there) but i still cant stop for good.

Ill appreciate it if you guys can give me your best tips .
I WANNA LIVE AGAIN NORMALLY

 

thank you so much for the reply .. I am so hopeless I need to get my life back, I would love it if you can give me general advice on how i can get started.

 

yay!
that sounds hard but I guess I am up for the challenge! I find it easy to not watch porn (my Pb is 70 something days) but stories and pictures are my weakness and the start of my relapses.

 

exactly :\
it is out of boredom , im a night person .. so ill be alone at night doing nothing but watching YT or series or reading a book it looks like i should start from there and sleep earlier!

 

guess this is going to be my new challenge specially that im starting uni again next sunday anyway !
i also need to lose weight as i stated earlier .. this addiction really ruined my lifestyle , i used to be somewhat a fit person :'(

 

i joined the muslims group
but i need to check the women section, its a lot easier to talk to other women i guess.

 

Good luck to all of us!

 

So far I'm trying to understand my triggers ..I know boredom and staying awake alone at night are one of them ..so for that I'm going to work on sleeping better and fill my time with something productive ( I like learning new languages,reading books,writing..etc) so maybe I'll do these things more

 

thanks for the recommendation ! gonna read that whenever i have free time.

 

Thanks I will!