This is my story about my 40+ day nofap journey after leaving hospital today, while taking Xyvelam, Diclac and some other stuff to shrink my oversized balls. This story is about huge benefits as well, as downsides of doing nofap. A must read for younger nofappers. About me: I'm Inski, 36 years old. Born and living in between the Baltic, Adriatic & Black Sea. I've started craving for porn at the age of 14, where I've went to various 'underground' internet caffes to be able to peek at some nudes (Internet during the mid 90's wasn't as common as it is today). Of course I wasn't masturbating in front of the pot heads, who made out most of the people visiting those places, but it was a beginning of my addiction. Between the age of 14 and 16 I was a very lively kid, but as gradually time passed I've started consuming more and more internet porn. At home internet porn slowly replaced my sexy magazine collection. With each year I was becoming a little bit less and less energetic, less and less present "in the head". I've started using porn to relieve my stress. Before discovering nofap, I wasn't aware of that. It got really bad some 10 years ago when Steve Jobs premiered the first iPhone, and I've finally got my first internet-friendly smartphone. The other factor was my immensely stressful job. At some point to relieve stress I've often resorted to PMO at work while being alone in the toilet. This and me slowly becoming a zombie devoid out of any strong emotions and desires was my next low. During the end of this low, perhaps 3-4 years, I was also masturbating almost each next or second day. At some point I've started having bigger and bigger problems experiencing orgasms. This was my turning point to research nofap about 40 days ago NoFap Day-by-Day, Week by Week. Day 0-3 After not being able to come during sex I've immediately went no PMO. I've simply resisted the urge keeping my self busy with there things. Day 4-7 I started feeling like a beast. Literally. I'm rather athletic + I'm on a testosterone boosing diet since almost 1 year. On day 5 I've literally bit my tongue to prevent telling an attractive female gym receptionist, whom I find rather annoying, because she often attempts starting chitchat with me while I'm hurrying to get in and out of the gym.. ..To "shut the F* up and take off her pants". My libido went thru the roof. During the last 2 days of the first week I've started looking at good-looking women similar to a wolf looking at it's pray. Of course I've been looking a women in a sexual way before. But I've never ever experienced this type of feelings in such an intensive way before. I some way It came as a shock to me. Before this I did receive some attention from women. However they've never seemed to be so radiating with joy when they see me.. since I was 18-24 years old. I keep a precise record of everything what I'm doing at the gym. After day 5, I was a able to increase my running speed and the number of pull-ups by 10% without effort. Previously doing this has taken me about 1 month. While doing nofap day 5 came and I was able to do this in one day. In terms of energy & focus I've only wanted to grab some real pu**y and do physical activities. Sound's wierd, but I've experienced a pleasant burning warm & fuzzy feeling around my stomach area. Then at the peak of this high, during an evening, I've experienced a huge migraine. After taking a lot of painkillers I was able to live thru the next day. Day ~8~33 After the migraine my crazy libido went down to a more normal level. I was able to think clear now. The "female attraction" "superpower" also scaled down a bit ( or at least my perception of it). The boost to physical endurance also scaled down a bit.. but my performance at the gym and general endurance remains much better than during the tapping days. According to my gym-notes this can not be attributed to the regular pace of my gains from before nofap. - I've gradually gained focus and better memory. - I've discovered passion for my work again - I'd like to experience more and more of everything. The only problem is the day having only 24hr. - I've started executing my daily schedules with much less effort - I'm clearly present in the moment all the time - I've started doing more productive things (i.e. listening and viewing educational YT videos instead of playing computer games) - My energy levels are similar to when I was 18-24 years old - My social anxiety I've started developing some 10 years ago is almost gone Day ~34~35 - I can say of myself I feel no or close to no desire to see porn, but.. Day ~36~38 - I want to have a nuru massage with 2 hot models or/and have a threesome with 2 10/10 girls. In other words I want to put my wet dreams into reality. There aren't any good quality establishments in my town, that would make this possible. However there some top quality establishments in other cities that offer those type of experiances. I've started organising my trip where, as a side activity, while doing job interviews, I'd visit such an establishment. While doing so I've cached myself edging on one of the ads offering such type of experience. Day ~39~40 Next day I've woken up with a burning feeling in my lower back area. When I've moved I've felt a strong pain in my abdomen. Then I've felt a strong pain in my left ball. My balls got bigger during the whole nofap time, but during the night my left ball got huge, red - and very sensitive - up to a point it was difficult for me to get out of the bed. This got a - bit - better after a few hours. But i was still experiencing those symptoms the next day. And the day after. Those were similar symptoms many of you on this forum are describing. In the mean time I've figured out IT WASN'T BLUE BALLS. Blue balls ought to disaster wholly after a few hours. I've experienced this condition for about 3 days. Since I want to have children one day, I've made an appointment with an urologist. But I wasn't able to make it to the appointment, because though it - got a bit better - It suddenly got a lot worse during the night. Since I'm not crazy, I've went to a hospital ER. Diagnosis: Epididymitis When left untreated, this can lead to serious problems. This is why I'm sitting now taking antibiotics and my tests are no longer hyper sensitive. The swelling and sensations in the tests are going back. And perhaps in 2-3 days I'm going to be able to continue functioning normally again. The problem is I'm loosing days and a day has only 24hrs. The Moral of the Story: 1. NoFap is great 2. Don't edge That said: 3. NoFap puts your organism under a heavy strain by: - Giving weird hormonal rides. - Putting physical pressure on your tests and genitals. Unused sperm is absorbed by the organism but it's possible that it's unable to absorb everything as it builds up, putting the inner workings of your genitals under additional pressure. - Edging builds additional pressure. All this pressure in longer time leads prostate deformation. In short time - it's enough for a drop of pee to get into the reproductory part of your genitals - to cause an infection. This can easily happen because of all the pressure buildup. 4. A man has to relive that pressure once per c.a. 30 days. Preferably with a partner. If not possible, in some other way aside of porn (i.e. you can get a tantric massage). But it has to happen within c.a. 30 days. That said getting back to napping i.e. once per week or once per 2 or 3 weeks is a bad idea. Fapping once per week will drain your energy to a very low level (I've been doing this before starting fapping each and second day). If not - bad things might happen. 5. If you're having any sensations in your tests fore more than 1 day. See an urologist immediately. ALL IN ALL: Nofap requires moderation. It's just lifting weights. Yes, it's positive, but you can also seriously injure yourself while putting too much strain on your back.