When will it end?

This streak has been absolute hell from the first week until now and I'm losing my mind. I have constant panic day in day out, I'm talking speaking in front of 100 people anxiety levels. Whenever I go outside my anxiety skyrockets and I get anxiety attacks. I can't even think straight, my head constantly aches and my dick feels like it's gonna fall off. I can't live like this, I'm in a prison and I am getting terrorized by urges to talk to girls on apps and to peek. When will it end guys? I feel like I'm not even alive anymore, I'm like an old man so weak and cold.

 

Welcome to the club.
I don't mean to pretend I know what is that you are going through because each one is an individual. But I've been there before.
I don't know when does it end. In my case it didn't end even after 120 days which is some twice of your reboot.
If I would give you any advice, it would be to try to incorporate some workout regimen, some minful techniques.
It is hypocrital of me to do this, but do what I say not what I do...
Good luck, don't give up.

 

120 days, good Lord. Did you end up relapsing before it got better? When I started this streak I told myself that I'd see this through, even if I had to be in this state for the entirety of it. Luckily I don't have any responsibilities at the moment but damn this is tough. At the moment I'm going hiking twice a day and I do bodyweight workouts, it helps a bit.

 

How's your pied progress bro?

 

Yes I gave in and as you can probably know, that was a big mistake.
That is a commendable thing to do, being so committed and in the end that is what probably going to win the battle.
But keep going forward. I have had many times when I felt very close to reaching my goals only to mess it up.
It gets better, you'll see but it may mean it will get worse before it gets better...

 

Because the loneliness is eating me up inside man. The only social contact I have is 1 hour with my psychologist a week. I don't even go on those apps for sexual intentions, just for some kind of friendship and to feel like at least somebody wants to talk to me. But I know it's a waste of time and you're right, they do make me feel like shit. This is always how it starts. Loneliness > trying to get friends online > failing > peeking and sexting. I didn't peek or anything but I could feel kind of the same anxiety that I'd get from seeking out porn so that scared the shit out of me. Nothing makes me feel better atm, I spend my days aimlessly wandering through town and contemplating how I can make it stop.

 

I am guilty of using these apps for the same reasons as you. It sucks when 99.9% I get ignored. Even one girl which does responds to what I write, I still feel like she doesn't reciprocate.
I don't know about you but it feels like the problem is with me.
But I get it. Sometimes I would start a conversation with a rock, just so I am not alone.
Hopefully things will look up...