Day 1 comeplete for pm challenge I don't orgasm yesterday but still I will stick to pm first coz my mind is very messy with dirty thoughts
Day 24/90 No urges whatsoever for the past couple of days, I didn’t expect this. Is this called flatline?
This is day 24 of 90. I joined this forum 353 days ago. Of those 353 days, I spend 312 days without doing PMO. This streak is not a very clean one - yesterday I was again watching some videos on Youtube that had some nudity. But since I was not getting aroused and not touching myself, I'm not counting it as a relapse yet. I'm trying out a new strategy: slightly less strict than I used to be, but then maybe I can at least get to 90 days without a full relapse. If in the meantime I occasionally take a peek at something and I manage to stay calm and see it as it is and I don't get aroused by it, I'm letting that slide. I'm well aware that it's a slippery slope and that those peeks may lead to a real relapse at some point - so if I manage to stop taking those peeks that would be way better. But counting every small thing as a relapse has just been discouraging and depressing me over the last year and has not been helping me. So, I'm gonna keep counting until I really can't justify it to myself anymore - and I will know when that happens. Then if I make it to 90 days this way, I know I can reach that and hopefully that will give me the encouragement to root out further stupid behavior.
I have been away for very long time. But as I am coming back on board, I will write a short story of what happened. Hopefully it gives some motivation to everyone including myself. I had a very bad reset, as I went into depression because of a break-up. For 2 consecutive days, I masturbated a lot, but then I took a second to look at myself, and I thought, why am I doing this? Is it because of someone? Do I really deserve to ruin my life and health for someone? Maybe I was changing to a better version but she couldn't handle that better version, and all she wanted was control over the weak one. So I tried a different approach this time. I thought, every time I come online write reset and do a check in for days and reset the counter and so on. But what about thinking about the reason behind the problem and trying to fix it from the root. So like everyone does, I went to google and wrote the problem. But this time I wasn't searching for a reason to stop because I am already feed up with that, this time I searched for a way to stop. And the source of the problem is porn, so how to quit porn, and how to break that habit. So I found some YouTube videos, taking about building new habits, and everyone mentioning that doing the same routine will always end up with pmo. I even watched a video about someone reaching 365 days, saying that the urges will never stop. The only difference will be the control of your urge, and the way you handle it. I also searched for the best habits to build, in order to quit. Today I reached 9 days of PMO 9/90. I feel I am getting better at this, I had lots of urges the last few days, but not for masturbation but for porn. But I just got myself out of my comfort zone, to explore and reach further. I am proud of what I reached and I am looking forward for more and more achievements. I give myself some milestone rewards, I try to spend more time outside. If anyone want to watch those videos, I can post with them attached. Good luck everyone, I will try to check-in more, no promises. Stay committed and always remember you are doing this for yourself, to become the best version of yourself, and not for anyone. Day 09/90
Just answer those questions by asking yourself and give point on each question from 1 to 10. It will let you know how you feel through your journey and know phase you are going through. It helped me I tried to keep record of in my book journal but add in my post to get better Idea of it.
TITLE - MAGGOT Day 1/90 Longest streak - 28 Last streak - 11 Total PMO - 140 Total P - 30 Total hours remaining - 659 Days remaining - 29 Challenges completed - 0 3 DAYS - 7 DAYS - 14 DAYS - 21 DAYS - 30 DAYS - 45 DAYS - 60 DAYS - 90 DAYS - 365 DAYS - Rules- 1. If you search for nude women or watch sex scene or softcore porn you will -5 days from your streak or reset if you're streak is less than 5 days. 2. Doing PMO or MO or PM or M or P once will count as a relapse and you have to reset your counter to 0. 3. Your are not allowed to use mobile while alone. 4. Removing the pornblocker or trying to do it count as a relapse and then you will -2 days from your streak or 0 unless necessary. " The only thing that going to make you relapse is your decision to watch porn." - Valier Report. On scale from 1 to 10. Points. 1. How depressed you feel? 4 2. How horny you feel? 2 3. How likely you want to relapse? 1 4. How much you crave for porn? 1 5. How much good you feel today? 5 6. How much sad you feel today? 1 7. Can you achieve your goal of nofap? 10
Day #10! Had sex on the weekend as well as a chaser effect. And as I knew that it would come I did everything to fight it. Knowledge = power!