Daily Checking In. “The Soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind” .
Day 42 of 90 No PMO 16+17-11-2019 48 to go 46,67% reached +10 days no PO Blog https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/do-or-do-not-there-is-no-try.233707/page-11#post-2327381 Almost at the halfway mark, but there is no half way, this is forever
It's been 32 days. I am just wondering what happened to my fog free mind i use to experience in before huge streaks. My mind is still foggy. Socially i am not interesting yet. Let's see. Anyways I am not expecting anything .... Just a thought came up.
I am kinda questioning my streak too. This is the father I ever go, 28 days. My biggest streak was 26 a few months ago, and yet I feel so much depressed... I am not feeling any other benefits than more energy at the moment. I am just encouraging myself that I have to go through this and that it will better after some time. I hope I will have enough patience and strength.
Day 24: Really hard day today. Had some super strong thoughts that were hard to control. Did things to keep myself busy and change what I was focusing on. What do you guys focus on when you have strong urges?
Stumbled, fell. Getting back up again. Peeked this morning (yes, I know I know, it is always a bad idea. I even knew it when I was doing it). The looked at full P with some M, but didn't finish. Got a bit bored actually, so walked away. But then my balls were really aching! Really quite unpleasant. Don't remember that before. So I obviously did something about it later... Not managed a streak that long since July or something, so not toooo bad. I do seem to remember struggling to get past the 9 or 10 day mark before. Will have to be more prepared this time.
I try to take a moment, relax and just look at my urges. And then try to determine where it comes from - which, in my case, is usually not something related to sex or desire at all but something that causes me stress and I want to run away from. And then I think of what acting on that urge would bring me, how it would make me feel afterwards: not away from the stress, but actually much deeper in it and hating myself on top of it all. And then I try to not act but wait until the urge flows away again, and meanwhile I focus on something positive.
thanks for sharing. restart again. no other way. I think we have to structurally deal with this shit, "peaking" is not an option brother. Even if we dont mastrubate eatching it, brain definitely will go back to old rewired state. I also get the urges to watch it. my fav pornstars i hv watched since last decade. that new girl which u love to watch..but is there an end to this madness?..do we get anything?..did u get anything by peeking?..u know all this, just sharing...Install nee habits, remove porn atleast...its d root cause of all the shit...rest will fall in place...I hear the divine words of Vipasanna teacher S N Goenka in the background-> "Start Again....Start Again...". U cant look back. dont feel bad about it. Its over. Resolve to never do it again and start on positive note. ATB
woww whole essense of stillness and meditation bro. great lesson right there for all of us. thanks for d wisdom.