Here goes my story: I'm schizophrenic. I take medication but angry, mocking, cruel voices are still there all the time and the truth is, I can't bring myself to believe they're not real. I also have chronic depression which brings suicidal thoughts and a crushed, awful feeling of pain and emotional turmoil to my consciousness at almost all times. I use porn for MO' but just look for something, five minutes, in, out and I'm done. I don't spend endless hours looking for fapping material anymore. BUT I AM addicted to celebrity blogs and I save the pics I find hot to my computer. This gives me A HUGE dopamine hit and I even feel almost HIGH as I do it. All that said, I wanna quit the blogs and PMO as well cause all along in my life, sex and porn and masturbation have not only brought me bad things, but also I've been abused, raped, and more, which makes sex mix with all kinds of bad associations and images in my mind. OK, so cut to a week ago. I started the process of blocking all porn and blogs from my devices. Took a while but it happened. With the exception of measly SAMSUNG INTERNET, on my tablet. I disabled chrome and got Spin browser, only to find out Samsung internet was not blocked by anything. So it's all pointless. Needless to say, everytime I get super depressed I end up dropping all my efforts to improve myself, I end up feeling like what's the point? who cares if I do this or not? I might as well be dead, and so on and on. So a 3 week challenge, like the one I was attempting, turned into 3 days NO PMO, and then a series of resets and relapsing every night till now. What can I do so I'll CARE ENOUGH that I don't drop NoFap and my challenges as soon as the first wave of depression hits? Anyone out there in a similar situation? I have a pretty effed up life, I never leave the house and I'm constantly bullied and harrassed by these voices. I eat to fill the void and pacify my hurt, so I've become quite fat too. I think I can safely say that I may not think PMO is enough of a problem for me so that I need SUCH a huge effort quitting entails. I feel enslaved by it sometimes but mostly I see it as a release valve for my huge anger and rage. When I quit PMO for more than five days, I become a mean bastard, always irritable and angry. What do you guys think? Should I keep trying or just give up? And HOW THE HELL do I block SAMSUNG INTERNET from my tablet??