40 days without edging. 50 days without an orgasm. Starting to get used to this as the “new normal”… or maybe I’ll get slammed with urges again at any moment
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39 days without edging. So much to do.
38 days without edging. I’ve had a very full day.
37 days without edging. Very very grateful for my recovery and 12 step programs
35 days without edging. This week has started out rough, despite my optimism.
34 days without edging. Looking forward to this week of recovery.
33 days without edging. It’s so so easy to start slipping towards my addiction and old habits.
32 days without edging. I am a newbie. I know less than I thought I did. This is just the beginning. I need to go 12 times as long without edging and I need to rewire my brain.
31 days without edging. On good footing so far today but I know that I can slip quickly.
30 days without edging!
And 56 days without P or MO. Remembering how I had 26 days and my AP had me change my date because I had been edging.
I had to let go of my pride to get over lust.
29 days without edging. 39 days without orgasm. I crave an O at times, and of course tempted to edge, too. It’s amazing to me going this long without edging when it was such a habit.
Also, virtually no urges to look at P or sexy pics … though I know that can change if I see something unintentionally, even celebrity red carpet photos
28 days without edging. But … I had a near slip, and a deep craving for orgasm.
Time for a cold shower. I gotta admit, I’m almost addicted to cold showers.
27 days without edging. 37 days without orgasm with no end (release) in sight.
If my body needs release, it’ll happen.
If my wife wants sex, my goal is to be ready.
Until then, my job is to stay busy and not play with myself.
26 days without edging. Doing well so far today.
25 days without edging. 51 days without P or MO. Grateful to keep going and very grateful that I didn’t slip yesterday even when I wanted to.
24 days without edging.
God, please help me to accept the natural ebbs and flows of arousal without turning to touching, fantasy or pornography to initiate, enhance, extend or control those feelings.
A lot more ebb than flow lately … and a struggle to accept that. I’d rather struggle with too much arousal
23 days without edging. I’ve been struggling. Frequently feeling strong urges for arousal …
Once or twice a day I’ll get it naturally, often when it’s inconvenient. Later I want to recreate it.
The great obsession is to control and enjoy arousal. In reality, it controls me - especially if I give in.
31 days without an O. Gosh, that really is a long time! Feels like my body should find a way …
22 days without edging. 48 days without MO. And without P … except for one stupid image that I stumbled on last night. Could have clicked away but stared at this “Freebie” even when it did nothing for me.
21 days without edging. Three weeks!! But edging is SO tempting. It’s SO easy to do! I struggled late last night. Touching while half asleep. It feels very borderline. I was on the edge of edging, which is the edge of M and MO. Too close! I’m in the middle of a long stressful week. I need to take even better care of my recovery.
Day 20 without edging. Had a close call yesterday but responded appropriately. Yesterday was in a funk all day - I think it was a cortisol detox after so much stress on Saturday. -
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