Day 2 Daily Check-In! I am still dealing the depression/shame from relapsing afte a 36 day streak. During my 36 day streak I was truly happy and at peace. Today, I was so depressed that I didn't want to leave my bed. I loved being me when I quit PMO, but I hate being the me that PMOs. The PMO me can't achieve what I want to achieve, only the PMO-free me can. A relapse/reset is just not worth it. The price you pay is just too high for what you're getting. However, I am really proud that I only PMOd for 1 day before I got myself back on track!
Moving towards the magical Day 90... Nowadays even facebook isn't safe! Everything is being sexualized in this world nowadays. I'm worried about the next generation, they'll grow up as weaklings if they are constantly exposed to such stuff
The PMO forces were too strong for me and I got isolated from my unit. We took many casualties in this relapse. We retreated to base to lick our wounds and rebuild our resistance. Day 0, the fight begins again!
Day 12 update = I Experinced A Nightmare but Won - urges came at about 11pm this time in same form i always relapse headache accompanied by stomachache , i usually just relapsed and fell sleep but this night i nailed it stayed awake till 4 am - walking around the house and drinking cold water check in Day 13
I keep going, yesterday I peeked at erotic pics and almost relapsed, but I suddenly realised why I started and switched off that. Thanks god I didn't relapse!