Accountability for All

I did win yesterday, and some triggers appeared to try to dissuade me from keep going with my reboot, but through suppressing resolve, I avoided them like a pro. And I was very productive.

Today I had a hard time sleeping, because it took more than an hour to drift off and I woke at the middle of the night.
 
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Bah gonna die if I keep fapping. I must be built different cause the doctor says
ejaculation is fine but I feel like crap for hours after I do it -_-

theblife described in Brahmacharya is the only thing that seems to be working for me I’m so tired from relapsing today gotta keep trying
 
higor pereira araujo said:
I went over 20 days abstinence but now I`m relapsing all the time, fuck, I`m trying to get myself together but this week my life became unmanageable again.
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I feel you man. I went not quite 20 days, but 18. And then went back to twice a week -_-

Just relapsed today. I'm wrote a bunch of spiritual and scientific reasons to stop watching porn a month ago - I'm going to read them every morning and see if that can help my mindset.
 
ZenYogi said:
Bah gonna die if I keep fapping. I must be built different cause the doctor says
ejaculation is fine but I feel like crap for hours after I do it -_-

theblife described in Brahmacharya is the only thing that seems to be working for me I’m so tired from relapsing today gotta keep trying
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Doctor's and science is stupid in the case of M, they say its healthy and promotes doing it, but we, as a sufferer know how harmful and destroying it is.
 
ARCEUS said:
Doctor's and science is stupid in the case of M, they say its healthy and promotes doing it, but we, as a sufferer know how harmful and destroying it is.
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I agree. Thanks arceus. M IS horrible for us. It’s like how they say one glass of wine a day is healthy but give it to an alcoholic and they could be dead in a week. M is that dangerous for us.
 
Day 1

relapse prevention

I know it can happen to the best of us. I had a good few months streak and left thinking I had it down.

Here I am at day one, rejoining a accountability call group. $40 for once a week group video call. I didn’t wanna pay but I need it. Like badly. I couldn’t get the job done on the forums alone

when I see people with year plus streaks delete account. I just think, who knows if they’ll stay clean?

I was doing great and on a long streak when boom life happened.

A friend texted me triggering stuff, I had sex with my new gf and O happened then chaser effect led to M led to P. Failing never felt so bad. Makes me feel like dying sometimes tbh. I don’t wanna suffer like this. It’s a disease. Addiction to PMO is an illness and we’re all dying or recovering from it 24/7.365. I won’t let it grab a hold of me. Drag me down into the depths of heck and to an early grave. I won’t look back on my life and say, I never lived.

I spent my whole life running from life. Hiding in unhealthy addictions. Killing myself slowly with PMO like I used to with video games and substance use. But I’m not doing that anymore. I’ll stand and face this thing.


I am the lotus to overcome all challenges and I will overcome PMO, schizoaffective disorder and my anxiety.

I’M NOT GOING DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT!

You’ll have to pry my one day streak from my cold dead hands because I’m not letting go. >:| PMO life whoever and whatever might threaten my streak. I’m gonna beat you. Enjoy second place cause I’m staying on top forever. Let’s go. Let’s fight. May the best being win.
 
Checking in - I won yesterday, and I`m currently talking with a girl I`m interest, which is rare. Anyway, I`m not fine, I have to deal with porn addiction and a bunch of other problems I have, It`s hard... but I`m strong enough to deal with any problem, baby. STAY HARD.
 
higor pereira araujo said:
Checking in - I won yesterday, and I`m currently talking with a girl I`m interest, which is rare. Anyway, I`m not fine, I have to deal with porn addiction and a bunch of other problems I have, It`s hard... but I`m strong enough to deal with any problem, baby. STAY HARD.
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You got this!

Im on Day 3 I think and hoping to keep this streak going. I write in a relapse journal which I think has helped.
 
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