Is any of this a relapse?

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Pathofsuccess_1

Fapstronaut
Yesterday I decided to take a look at Snapchat without getting aroused. I started looking though and the bitmojis and the girls names (I’m extremely sensitive) had me getting kind of aroused so I stopped since i couldn’t use Snapchat without getting aroused (however I tried to innocently use it at first). I didn’t want to get Aroused.

today I was laying down and I had those thoughts going through my head and I became aware of my thing down there. I felt that “good” feeling because I noticed my things weight was creating pressure between it and my leg. I tried to adjust it with the thoughts still in my head so that I wouldn’t feel pleasure than I felt more of it on accident. It made me very aroused so I hopped up and walked around contemplating relapse for a second. The TV was playing a movie in which girls were talking and I noticed that and that made me slightly more aroused however I was trying to not focus on it. All this caused an urge that lasted maybe 45 minutes to an hour. I got over it for the most part but the urge is still lingering alittle bit. I never once got a boner as I didn’t let my mental arousal to escalate that far. But I did get aroused.
 
I truely think that those thoughts are very normal, the idea is you not falling back and following the cravings. Always remember yourself that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Getting back to porn won’t help you at all.
 
I think there needs to be a grave distinction with sexual thoughts/urges/arousal sensations of any name. If you think looking at something is going to lead to those feelings and you do so anyway without proper precaution, you may have be relapsing but you are playing with fire. Those things are triggers for a reason and you need to avoid them whenever possible. If your feelings simply emerge based on someone who walks by you or a scene you did not expect to see on TV or the random nature of your train of thought, you have done nothing dangerous and you merely have the opportunity to practice your resistance measures against a trigger.

Do not, under any circumstances, play around with triggers. If you know something will trigger you, do not look at it, do not think about it more than a few seconds after it pops up, just stay away. You have to exercise caution in all things.
 
First of all. You decide what you count as a relapse. But if you gotta ask, its probably a yes.

Second. Thoughts. No I wouldn't consider them a relapse. Its what you do based on your thoughts that is a relapse. Like thought-snapchat-relapse.

Thoughts alone I would not consider a relapse. Rather. Consider your thoughts the same as stress. Its just something you need to learn to control.
 
Hey everyone, I wanted to write journal entries few times now but i started different threads without getting any response, and since this thread captured my darkest stages in my addiction and your replies were massively motivating and inspiring and helped me to effectively alter my trajectory. I wanted to give you a quick update, I have greatly improved despite the quarantine frustration and loneliness. I now exercise and read almost daily, I have started healthy diet and cut off all sugary drinks and decreased my body fat ratio. I am now more self-confident, I sleep better now, just like a baby , I stopped getting transsexual fantasies and HOCD, as a matter of fact, I feel more manly than ever, my body hair has increased but I can’t tell for sure whether it was due to “nofap” or due to my “Rogaine” use, it does not matter. Due to the regular body weight exercises like push ups and rope jumping and abs. My muscles feel stronger and I am more active than before. I have been getting erections, not very strong, but it is satisfying as hell to fell your little buddy down alive without having to look at explicit material, I am more attracted to girls and my personality has been more loving, cheerful and sarcastic, I joke around with my siblings and mom. I joke with my friends on social media and It feels amazing. I hope everyone can stop this habit and pursue their goals and enjoy their lives back again, I hope everyone can have the discipline and be able to delay gratification to the right moment and use (with a real-life beautiful girl), I hope everyone will have a healthy sexual life in the future and find true love. I hope the newer generations will learn about the harmful effects of porn from an early age and not fall in this trap we have fell into. Blessings everyone, wish you all the best.
 
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