Read my story it could save your life.

You mentioned drifting away from God. Are you a Christian?

 

What if that voice is lying to you?

 

Hey friend , for 20 years i am seeing hell, not a single day in my life where i laugh or enjoy . I am always fap fap and fap, that's my life is all about . On reading your story believe me i can feel that exact pain and disappointment you are going through. The nofap, meditation, transmutation yaa everything works for everyone but not for me. I am a man with the term failure being imprinted on my forehead so that everyone can read it on our first time seeing. I want to escape pmo but at the same time i want to fap because i don't know anything in life other than fap.

 

This is what it does to you. Hope you can get on the right path, wish you well. I recently relapsed after coming back here and trying to help others. I didn't help myself, but have to keep trying. I'm in misery right now.

 

So you're saying that this specifically gets you off the most.
I don't think that this is the "classical" porn addiction, if that even exists.
What gives you the most from that affectionate response?
Does the camgirl have to look especially good?
Is it just the affection that turns you on?
Ask yourself these kinds of questions and you will maybe start to find the root of your addiction.
Once you know what you are dealing with, you will understand yourself more and your self-hatred will diminish.

 

I remember you from a few months back, keep fighting brother. You got a lot to gain and little to lose giving up porn. You yourself have shown this has lead you the right path, all you have to do now is quit. Not quit then peek then relapse. Cold turkey, maybe even SPAM REMOVED (spam code #001) - REPORT TO MODERATION method if it helps. But in general, you have already won but you don't accept that. Death is pointless in your case still, why give up a good hand? Keep going, if not for you for me. Ill put a bet on you even if you don't believe in yourself. Best thing to do now too is to get off this website, this is apart of the void we are just recovering addicts to the void. Get on with life and abandon the internet for a while, you'll see the difference. Also stop wasting money on women that do not care about you, if you continue doing that you are doing the equivalent of burning money to those types of women. Also worst part about your situation too is that most people will not care, so telling us you have a 10/10 girl and a great body, all that really does is sound like a whiny brat. Harsh but true.

 

Well said

 

oh that's great! uh...

well there's only failure in relationship to a goal...

 

just love your parents more than anything nobody knows how many days and years we have left and there is no going back in the moments

 

Breaking porn addiction is a real MF-er, but believe me when I say that you are far better breaking the cycle now than waiting. I knew I had a problem for 35 years, but was unable to do anything about it until the last 2 years because I simply didn't know what to do. I couldn't talk to anyone about it, and had no other outlet for my anxiety and scars from the past. It is a viscous cycle.

There are some who succeed. Although I still struggle, I believe that I have found some success, and wish I had the tools 35 years ago to deal with it. For me, the secret has been controlling my thoughts. I was able to achieve 465 days of sobriety by doing this, until recently relapsing. Overcoming 35 years of addiction is no easy task.

Don't lose hope, my friend; or if you have lost hope, find it again. You need to latch on to something positive in your mind and hold on to it until it begins to spread to other areas in your life.

 

yuup bro without any doubt

 

Have you tried blockers / filters ?