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Hello fellow addicts, I'm new to this website. I have been on nofap for about a week now. I have not kept exact count of the days because it gives my mind the impression that PMO is going to be my award once I accomplish the 90 days. All I know is that I never want to go back to porn again...

Looks like i am stuck in this shit, i tried again and again to fap to 'average' porn to forget the hardcore porn flashbacks, but of course without much success, also if i only see a thumbnail of hardcore porn the images keep stuck in my mind, that is the time when a try to fap to softer shit to...

I've never liked him. Actually, I've never met someone who has. Ever. Ever since I was born my family and I have been literally on edge, everyday feels like we're walking on eggshells. Every morning I awake to him calling my grandma and uncle retards over the smallest irrelevant things. It hurts...

I no longer want porn or masturbation in my life. I want to feel free and to live my life as a dignified and whole man. I am 10 days clean now. I have had one weak point yesterday evening, I spent 2 hours looking at non-erotic, yet arousing images, before I stopped myself form going any further...

In her car while my family slept in my house. I snuck out of my house and was picked up by a woman from Craigslist and gave her 120 to go down on me in a parking lot at 3:00 AM. I've paid for a BJ once before and some HJ's, but nothing this sleazy. It all started by watching porn then...

Hi everyone, sorry for taking a bit of your time. I'm 25 now, since I was 14 or so, always found normal to watch a lot of porn and get in sexchats. Now, I'm in a relationship, I'm happy and I actually enjoy sex with her but... most of the time, I feel so guilty, because I hide her I still get...

I'd be going strong for 5 days but a few hours ago this girl I'd been speaking to for a while wanted me to come round it was tempting at the time an I had a moment of weakness and went round. I ended up having sex with her but all I feel now is shame and disappointment in myself, have I relapsed?

I saw a therapist this morning and we had an important conversation (despite the fact that I wanted to fuck her- I am really horny some days and I find it difficult to talk to women when that's what's in my mind. I also wonder if this kind of thing is a healthy or a more pornographic or...

Long Post Warning. But this is something that I believe is very important to me and may be important to you as well. I have been slowly coming to realize the thing that tortures me the most. It is loss of interest in "things." Now I want to be clear that I am not sure whether this has to do with...

When we date, don't we just present this false self to the person we're with? Then we continue this false character as the relationship develops. Because if our SO truly finds out who we really they will want nothing to do with us! This is what Brené Brown said in a TED Talk: For men, shame...

Hi again folks, anyone here experienced intrusive thoughts when fapping? like sexual images who you don't want to think during orgasm? i feel like i need to fap again until i orgasm without having the thoughts again, if i don't do this 'ritual' i have no will to do anything, also i feel i cn't...

I am struggling with this OCD long time ago, now every porn i see seems way to wrong and i try to relapse to soft things to 'clean the mind' man i feel lost in the point of the journey :( I feel way more guilty and ashamed than before, i don't know if this is good because in the end i will find...

Hi, I am 21 years old. Since I started watching porn in 9th grade, I used to get aroused by a woman undressing. Nothing more was required. But as I grew older, my fantasies became darker, sadistic and shameful. I can't even mention these things to anyone. Sex is all I ever think about and it is...

Last night I had a sexual dream. During the dream I was acting out a specific sexual fantasy that I learned from watching countless porn videos in my past. The moment I woke up, I felt some shame. I felt like a monster for having that dream. Looking back at it now, I know that I had no control...

Do you agree?

So after a few months doing research non-stop about a plethora of different things and listening to all kinds of people talking about this and many other subjects, I've come to several conclusions, I thought I'd share some of them with all of you. If this can help even one person then I consider...

I have been addicted to pornography on and off since I was a mere 9 years old. I think that being introduced to porn at such a young and vulnerable age really scarred my brain permanently . Starting off with softcore porn did not last long as my brain would always want to shift to something new...

I hadn't planned on introducing myself but I'm beginning to realise I'm in a more dire situation than I first thought. I'm 18 and I'm addicted to porn and financial domination (when men/women humiliate you online and demand you send them money). I watch porn daily and it's not uncommon for me...

Hey everyone. Its my first time here and I hope this can help me. Im 17 years old and addicted to fapping. I don't even need porn, sometimes when the internet is to slow I do it without porn, just my imagination or with photos or even cartoon porn. I fap almost every day and sometimes two times...

Like intruse sexual thoughts that you don't want to think?

Hi everybody! I'm a new member here and new to this concept of rebooting; I must say I am ready for a change since I have been FAPing my entire adult life and I am ready for a change. At my worse I would FAP up to 4 times in a day although one or twice seemed to be the norm; I did notice that I...

I have been reading more and more posts lately it seems about people who feel ashamed about watching fetish porn, violent porn or whatever have you, yet feeling ashamed doesn't get you any closer to being free. Now you may be thinking "meanbean70, you can't just stop feeling ashamed. That's not...

Hello there, Procarastination has hit a critical mass for me. Watching porn and masturbation has destroyed my self esteem and any executive functioning skills I may have had. The first thing I do when I wake up is look at porn, right after I feel demoralized and shamful. If I have freetime it's...

Hello everyone, My name is Fran and I am super happy I have found about the NoFap community movement. All my praise to the founder Alex and all the fapstronauts for their courage to open their private life to fellow strangers to expel shame and welcome encouragement instead. I want to join...

I moved countries 1.5 years ago to be with my partner of 3 years(we met studying abroad). 7 months ago I started having issues with my work visa and we had to let go of our apartment due to the instability of my status. So... we moved in with her parents since then. Three months ago, I lost my...

Me and my fiance have been in a relationship for 5 years and he's the most wonderful man I met. About 3 months ago I found out that he has been addicted to pornography for 10 years. I have him my support and it was going good for a while but then I stared questioning him, not letting him take...

Me neither, so keep your streak.

Hello dear people, first of all I want to say sorry for all grammar mistakes. I'm from Germany. I posted a thread a few months ago. My plan was to abstain from porn but I struggled and continued to watch porn. I would not say that I'm addicted to porn. I don't watch porn a long time (just...

So ive been watching porn pretty frequently for about 12 years now and there has been an escalation. My favorite was lesbian and still is but i recently started watching lesbians and transwomen and transwomen solo. transwomen used to and to some extent still disgust me but whenever i get high on coke...

Hi all. I am a Spanish man, 37 years old. I am Spanish, so forgive my mistakes in English. I remember that I masturbated firstly in my life when I was 12, and I have not been able to be more than few months without it, even though I've never enjoyed it. I am a Christian, and I would like to stop...

Ive allowed myself to slip back into pmo yet again. It's time to stop once and for all. The guilt and shame it brings refreshed my motive to want to curb this demon for good this time. I've put blockers on again and locked them. Day 1 hard mode...let's do this! Fuck you porn!

Hello, everyone. I am brand new to this recovery thing, NoFap and, am hoping to get my life on track to being a true human with nothing to hide or be ashamed of. Because it is exhausting living a double life, filled with shame and sub conscience compulsion to direct attention away from myself...

Hi nofap community...this is the 1st time I have joined a community to help with my addiction. Started when I was around 10 and was always an easy target for porn. 25 yeARS have passed. I guess I have been fighting it since 18 but really intensely for the last 8 years. Managed to have good...

Look I don't know where this will take me. I've tried before two years ago and slipped. I've never actually done this properly. Let's try it out for once. Doing this shit properly. I am stronger than this shit, it's just videos and pictures. No PMO'ing until NEW YEAR starting now. Anyone that...

I honestly don't want to quit masturbating. Because it isn't that bad and the high is great. It just makes me feel down when i feel this huge guilt and shame after i've masturbated for no apparent reason. I am just looking for tips here. What do you think is the solution? How to replace the...