For some of My friends who might have relapsed recently.... Let me tell you one thing, doing relapse doesn't mean you lost the everything or you are out. You should not have relapse to be a reason that's why you are feeling low. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter you loose or you win, The only thing that will matter is that You used your 100%, You Stayed Focused , You workedhard and YOU DIDN'T GIVE UP!! [YOU RELAPSED? ITS OKAYDON'T BE SAD, TAKE LESSONFROM RELAPSE AND MOVE ON THATS WHAT I WANTED TO SAY] Have A Great Day!!! Peace
Day 5 again thank goodness. Iv sobered up from my pmo/chatroom binge hangover from last week. I fell off the wagon hard this time. To new beginnings and a clean rest of October, November, December and beyond
Day 28. Had high urges the past two days, but that is behind me now. Clearity has returned to my brain. Message to self - 'PMO deaddiction is a up and down journey, on the down days, stay steadfast to your conviction.'
This is crucial, you have encapsulated it well. We don't come away from years of abusing ourselves in this way, to suddenly feeling great every day. So when we feel bad, ESPECIALLY when we feel bad, we have to remain committed - because only by that way will we get to the other side of the bad days into the good days again. Here you loud and clear regarding the clarity... I gave up a lot of chemicals at the same time of giving up P, because they affected my mental state and judgement (And would often lead to consuming P). P did leave a big empty space when it went, and that is sad, because it's a sign of how dysfunctional my life had become, but it's necessary to go through this pain, because this is life, it's important that we can actually FEEL ourselves - because without feeling we don't know if we are on the right track or not.
One month done. Never thought I would make it so far. It has gotten much much easier with time. Dont really get any urges now. This is my first streak since I joined this website and hoping to make this the last streak of my life. Thanks to all the wonderful people here. Also a little about an obvious physical change Ive seen. During the first few days I had a lot of wet dreams and in the start all I saw was porn in my wet dreams. With time it has changed. Now both the frequency as well as the content has changed alot . Havent had a wet dream for more than two weeks now. And the last time I had one I saw real people in them rather than pornography. Day 31
Very well said @Brahmacharya_UK. We find ourselves with much more time available to us without hourslong binges on PMO. What do we do? As you say, we must FEEL ourselves (emotionally) and find our path through the pain, urges, flashbacks, and all of the tricks our addict brains try to play on us to get us to act out. That time spent feeling and thinking about our addiction and battling bad behavior is difficult, but crucial to get into the good days. I am at my longest streak, nearing 40 days. I don't think I've been this clean since I was 12 or 13 years old, which is an amazing and sad fact. I've had tough days this past week but made it through. Let's everyone commit to having a clean weekend, we are here to help each other. Stay strong.
Friday afternoon. Get yourself together. Put safety measures in place. Map out a plan, don't get bored. Just about 60-65 hours left this weekend. Anybody believe you can't stay clean for 60 hours? We all can. Let's do it.
Checking in here. Day 12. This streak has been a little bit hard after relapse but I'm still pushing through.
Day 29. It feels my mind is much calmer now, but it is also a bit unnerving, as i am just not used to this sort of calmness. It is like my entire life a ocean storm was going on in my mind and now all of a sudden the waters are quite and calm, no waves. I know from my previous attempts of deaddiction that this is usually a high risk time for me. This new situation scares me a bit, but i have to accept it. What feels new and strange today, will be in a week, the most peaceful time I have had in the better part of the last decade. I must stay on my current course, and let this new experience flow through me. My mind feels weird because it is learning new things. Everything will be okay.
9 days down, 69 to go. Should end the year with over 300 days of NOT ACTING OUT. I might not have the biggest streak(s), but I am making progress for sure.
Good Morning People ! Today is Dusshera Festival In India [It has a lot of similarity with us] It is said that on Dusshera we should kill our bad thoughts, bad habit, and embrace good thoughts, good habits and good people And you know what I killed my bad thoughts, I killed my bad habits of p, and also i got some new good people like you all
Day 7. I always feel much better after a week in the bag, it feels like my foot is on the first step of the ladder and I’m off the ground
